zzzz .
having a terrible cough man .
LOL.
been coughing like some drug addict. lol.
-

dance dance dance .
hahha .
so excitedddddddddddd .
and scared at the same time .
lol.

so far, my timetable's good .
been following it .
and hope i will be, for the subsequent weeks.
(:
-

french roleplay later.
hope we dont screw up.
right wei rong?
(:
-

life's weird .
i dont know .
i feel like, im confused over every lil thing .
things might appear like that, might not be the case though .
okay i dont know what im saying hahah .
-
sometimes i wonder whether i do have a family .
seems like i dont .
and i always envy others.
who have a perfect family.
i dont have the luxury of having parents by my side.
and it sucks to see people treating their parents badly.
-.-
haha .
jealous .
i wish love is given,
instead of gifts.
-.-
whatever.

-

ryan did a beautiful piece yesterday .
its really really dope.
(:
it just drives my frustration away .
heh .
(:
the part where he asked us to go crazy .
its fun(:
-

how do you open your heart?
its affecting my dance .
maybe time will tell.
lol.

-

reVogue .
AH LEEEEEEEEEEE(:

we're coming MELBOURNE.(:

bgirl, iris and me .

finally updating again .

felt so lazy, knowing that i have tonnes to do .

but yet im not moving my asss .

lol.

-

suntec suntec suntec .

hahah .

had never left my mouth/mind for once.

so worried.

and with exams crashing in again,

its like , zzzzzzzzzzz .

timetable does the work .

james(:

have you ever wondered what would your life be like,

without dance?

this is what i asked myself .

most prolly i would be working my ass off in law .

be at the comp/library 24/7 studying.

and that would be it i guess .

lol.

so boring.

with dance,

i express myself more.

feeling happy .

and many more.

nevermind.

dont know how to explain hahaha .

-

went to osch for suntec meeting on monday .

seeing everyone discussing bout suntec makes me feel

nervous .

its my first competition.

LOL.

saw ryan!

hhaha . he asked,

'can i hug you?'

LOL.

so funny .

it started after one of the trainings in osch i remember.

=X

-

i didnt know i can inspire someone to learn popping .

and to dance, in general.

dope.(:

going to school now .

according to my schedule,

im not behind time.

hahaha .

bye(:

DREAMS ; 25/07/08

dreams is over .

the frustration, hardwork and late nights had paid off .

heh.

(:

it was another wonderful experience.

=D

-

its also dope when i get to dance to 'cell block tango' .

its like, totally different feel i get when i did that item .

not the girl's hiphop feel .

but something..

different.(:

liked it .

lol .

(:

-

popping was good .

feels weird , to sit on stage at the start .

hahahah .

but its fun .

(:

and jean's hiphop .

DOPE.

(:

-

im just happy .

hahah.

thanks limin and yn for coming !

can hear u guys cheering for me .

(:

and not forgetting diana, erika, weijie, nik and wilfred .

hahah .

hope u guys had fun .

(:

hahaha .

and to the juniors too .

u guys were really sweet(:

thanks for the presents too .

heh .

melise for the flower, limin for the cap,

and diana for the chocolates(:

-

looking forward to suntec now .

REVOGUE 's our crew name hahaha .

(:

lets work hard, revogue!

and to urban stance , and independent team too .

(:

bye .

=D

what is MBS .
you keep screwing MBS .
MBS = my boring self .
screw my boring self . lol .

YAAAAA the late nights .
you mean YOUR late nights .
i think you will be a panda soon .
no more penguin no more dodobird .
lol evolved .

OMG .
WHAT'S THIS .
MY JOEYMON IS EVOLVING INTO . . .
A PANDAMON .
* pokemon sound *

you you you you .
did did did did .
cell block tango .
with another guy !
i .
am .
jealous .
LOL .

kay sorry bored . -.-
stop partying !
boooo .

Dreams is tonight .
lets rock the stage TPDE.
(:

-
got more stuffs to worried bout now,
even though dreams is finishing today .
suntec, exams, and many more .
but i'll cope .
-

james james james(:
sorry for all the late nights .
memorable one would definitely be the
'talk to james at 6am in the morning'
LOL.
and if u realised, we both woke up at the same timing .
HAHAHAHA .
<3 .
-

gonna go school now .
screw MBS.
and dreams tonight .
(:

btww.
SCREW NOT = FUCK.

james-.-

HHAHAA .

woke up this morning to find myself looking at a gloomy sky .
it rained heavily, and i was shivering .
then came in my grandmother blabbering a whole lot of stuff
i simply dont understand .
the day started off sooooo nicely .
yeah, like how nicely-.-
-

i dont know what came into me,
but my world's crashing down .
i cry.
i cry over slightest things .
idontknow .
i just cried .
and cried .
all evil thoughts ran into my head .
seeping all my positive thoughts away .
and tts scary .
for a moment,
i felt like,
i wanted to fly .
:(
-

tormenting myself .
and to think people understood .
no, they dont .
now i understand why people kept saying
'people dont understand' when they have problems.
its because they dont understand themselves too .
-
i dont feel love .
my heart is hollow.
my dad doesnt give a damn bout me .
not even my mom.
im insignificant.
maybe.
to the whole world.
im tired.
maybe im sad.
i need to open my heart .
gin says .
i need to , now.
for now, its closing.
slowly .

come home .
come home .
come home .
come home .

coOOOoooOooome hoOOOoooOOOoome .

* WAILS *

IF YOU CONTINUE POPPING TOO MUCH YOUR BACK MIGHT POP AND HURT SOMEMORE AND THEN AND THEN AND THEN , MY HEART WILL POP ALSO . ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAR

O_+


and if you just got your period today i won't make fun of you because i am scared LOL .

never mess with a girl that just got her period .
you'll die horribly.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAAA.


-

its funny how u've always stuck with someone
even though u know u disliked her certain actions.
yet, whenever she needs someone,
you'll be there no matter what.
even though she treats you 'badly',
or rather not being sensitive enough to your own feelings .
:(
u love people for what they are .
however, its taking a toll on you when you know it hurts.
your heart says, ' look, she's hurting you time and time again'
but u just merely brushed it off, and say,
' nvm, its okay . i guess she's busy or *inserts another reason here* .'
-
maybe u arent sensitive enough to my feelings.
nobody likes to take initiative all the time, dear girl .
i cherished our friendship .
and thats probably why im ranting .
its because im hurt this time .
and u didnt feel it .
yeah .

-

nevermind.
nobody understands anyway .
-.-

i think i screwed up BA paper .
zzz .
its not like i didnt revise, or studied for it .
i just blanked out when i saw the questions .
:(
owell .
im praying hard .
and fuck-.-
to think i took POA when im in secondary school .
joey, please bang your head against the wall.
=.=

and wtf man .
this is the first time i couldnt sleep because of my back .
its 1233am now .
and i NEED to sleep cause i had lec at 9am .
but i cant,
my stupid back is killing me
till i swear im gonna cry.
-.-
thanks.
its like only 3 more days.
-.-
-

i hope jun wei had fun .
(:
i like this kind of birthday celebration where everyone has fun tgt
amidst the tense situation about concert(:
love love.
(:
-

gonna rub my back .
bye world.
(:

its a peaceful day today .
one of those rare sundays where i dont have to go out with her .
LOL.
but im stucked at home studying for tests and doing projects .
:(
-

dance had been great for the past few days.
(:
dreams in like, 5 more days .
had vetting on saturday.
and i guess its really true when gin and ryan said,
when we're no longer bogged down by steps and stuff .
cause i myself felt happy and a sense of enjoyment when i did popping .
its no longer the usual fear i felt when we needed to show our item last time. heh .
(:
jean's item is dope too.
had fun too. (:
LOL.=D
-

sometimes i wonder why some people can nag on and on non stop .
its like, they had said something earlier on.
and then after awhile, they appear out of no where,
and started REPEATING what they said earlier.
and when u said, yes i know, u just said that earlier on,
they will go like, ' yeah. ' THEN they start all over again.
i mean like, wtf?
dont say things for the sake of saying.
its getting on my nerves.
and its pissing me off.-.-
assssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
-

took long bus ride home yesterday.
after lunch with joyce and chin .
and dope shit .
i slept all the way back .
lol.
i always think alot in long bus rides. heh .
raining cats and dogs when i alighted at my stop.
zzz.
drenched like totally, when reached home lol .
-

come back soon .
though its only like 2 days.
time seems a lil slow now .
lol.
am waiting.
heh .(:

you stole my heart .

♥

dance was dope on wednesday .
for once, i felt so carefree while doing modern.
modern for me, had always been restrictive,
and this time .
it proved me wrong.
(:

ryan's really dope.
i guess his teachings and the way he expresses himself to the class
is really commendable .
like what raaz said,
sg's mia michaels .
LOL!
its like,
i've always admired mia's pieces on SYTYCD .
but this time,
i tried it myself .
doing contemporary which i've never done in a long time .
hee .
miss yeo's contemporary is so much different from what im doing now .
(:

and for once ,
ryan mentioned me and joyce's name .
very very suprised .
and the fuzzy feeling i get when he mentioned on my weakness,
about being not confident and stuff,
is just great .
at least i know someone there is willing to remind me what im always lacking of .
i appear to be confident, but im not .
wth right.
zzz .
the piece is really beautiful .
and funny incident .
lol.
joyce and i were stand quite close to each other .
so when we did the backward roll,
we were so close to getting it..
and then.....
joyce's feet touched my FACE.
ROFL.
everyone's like laughing man .
LOL.=X
i had so much fun doing that piece.
just be more confident , joey .
(:
-

anyway,
yesterday's popping and LA were dope too .
heh .
finished the routines already .
and i like popping's music.
so groooooovy .
ahha .
and LA!
partner work .
lol.
so funny .
andy!
get well soon!=D
-

looking forward to Dreams .
its been a hell of a time .
haha .
come to think of it,
we didnt had much time to prepare,
but still everyone's putting in an effort.
i felt happy,
not by everyone putting in an effort.
but more like,
i feel happy we're doing this tgt .
our combined effort.
heh .
-

and to love .
sorry i couldnt be there to talk to you as often .
i'll still be here for you .
dont forget .
smile smile .
push all those terrible thoughts away.
(:
-

MBS SUCKS.
ZZZZ.
okaybye.
=x

ps . limin! hahaha . u should have taken that ear piece out and blast that guy tts sleeping away.
wack him ah .
LOL=X

dont like to argue .
arguments = forfeit = sing song / funny video.
LOL!
must remember must remember.=x
(:

modern later .
am rotting at home knowing i have to study and mug my ass off
cause of suntec and dreams,
but im procrastinating.
zzz.
and its raining.
making my day even more gloomy than ever .
:(
cnt slack.
no time alreadyyyyy.
and and and .
SUNTEC.
rahhh.
scary.
-

code:edge too .
SSG, solo?(:
hahhah!
mariel martin, jp,
dance2xs, meredith kerr .
dope dope .(:

tummyache now .
having beancurd in pretty purple container, and plastic bag.
hhahahhaa .
okay bye .
*runs to the toilet*

i've learned that , in life, its your determination and will power that pushes you and gets you going. why are there so many different people out there? why are there emomo people, strong headed people, and people who cry at the slightest things? isnt it about your own willpower? i dont understand. life's like that i suppose. its not smooth sailing, its supposed to push you, and make you feel sad/happy/angry/frustrated/elated/pissed or whatever. but why cant people see it? is it because we're too occupied with the emotions on hand that we become ignorant of these small details? moping over what had happened isnt gonna help. in fact, i guess you should be doing something about it, thinking of how to turn the situation around right? i dont know. maybe some people are like that. nobody's perfect. im confused. sometimes i feel what the person is feeling. but i cant do anything to help. its like, you help, but yet he/she isnt helping himself/herself. so , maybe this is why emomo people are borned. they mop around, they dont help themselves. yes, actions speak louder than words. but isnt it like, you at least try? why is it that i see people not trying? or maybe i cant see it. thats all. i dont know. its the urge to be there, and help. but yet its not working. why why why. if u dont help yourself , and brace yourself up for the challenges in life, i guess its all up to you. whether you wanna stay happy, or just draw circles in one corner for the rest of life. for me, i would rather choose the first option. isnt it better? and if you think its right, then i cant do anything. the life is yours. you decide for yourself if ure gonna be brave/weak. it might seem tough. but as long as you perservere, i guess it will be alright at the end of the day. 'the sun always comes out after the rain' .its been stuck in my head ever since she told me that. but to you? does it even mean a thing? i dont know.
-
deep thoughts run in chains. i just wrote what i feel.
-

people kept telling me not to.
they told me its not workable,
its wrong.
they say i contradict myself.
i know all these.
but why am i still continuing to be like that?
have you ever thought that,
all i wanted is to be there for you,
to help you in every way i can,
to just go home and talk to you,
every single day.
-
i know ure alone.
all alone.
i felt helpless when i cant help you.
i felt sad when u do.
i feel so much.
and there's so much that i can do.
but u know what?
its your heart.
open it.
ure just shutting yourself up.
-

if u wanna keep everything inside.
im fine.
you dont wanna let me know?
its fine.
but being negative about it,
and keeping inside is wrong.
ure just ..
doing yourself a disservice.
-
dont say no one understands.
people do understand.
you're assuming nobody does.
for at least my heart is there to hear.
and feel.
and understand you.
-

maybe i aint that impt to you.
since you learnt that people come and go.
maybe i aint impt at all.
at all.

i am sexy .
i am sexy .
i am sexy .
i am sexy .
i am sexy .
i am sexy .
i am sexy .
I AM SEXY .

I CAN DO THIS BECAUSE I GOT CHOSEN .
I KNOW I CAN .
WOOOOT .
LOL .

-

okay i've read the tagboard .
some people don't know who's who .
ahahaha .
this isn't joey this time .
i'm blogging on her behalf .
BECAUSE .
she got chosen for suntec dance 2008 today .
audition's a week after her production .
it's something big . (or so i think it is)
it's a girl's hip hop thing and joey's a popper .
it's supposed to be SEXY .
SO SHE THINKS SHE CAN'T DO IT .

gin thinks she can .
i think she can !
i know you guys think she can too .
so show her some love okay !
say something better than arguing about . . .
that gay jerome someone .
-.-

GO JOEY .
it's about time you showed everyone else what you're capable of .
i will buy and wave pom poms for you .
HEHEHEHEHE .

HI .
HELLO .
YO .

i came here to say . . . .














ABSOLUTELY ,




N O T H I N G .
heh !

today's a weird day .
lol.
met weird people on the bus back home,
and things that i see.
=x

there's this girl,
she's like, in club attire .
wearing heels that were sooooo high,
and chunky,
and its scary cause her legs are real skinny and it seemed like
her ankles will give way any moment .
and then she started rubbing her nose .
-.-
and when she rubbed her nose,
she did it in such a funny way,
it seemed like her nose ,
is fake.=x
LOL!
and her eyes were turqoise in color.
pretty(:
-

i nearly had a heart attack this morning .
stepped out of the train,
and realise that my card wasn't with me .
panicked and almost went to the counter to tell them,
when i found it inside my bag-.-
LOL.
-

while in the bus ,
i found it weird, when i dont see certain routes that the bus takes.
its like that in life isnt it?
like we always tend to see one point of view .
and it sucked, when we're forced to see another side.
but that taught me to look at both sides of a story,
and its still working for me.
heh .
(:

-
take care of yourself .
im sad, i cant be there,
but it wont be too long.
wait for me .
(:

01. What's your favourite fruit?
banana .

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
singapore hahahhahah .

03. What’s your favourite thing to do?
breakdancing .

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
no .

05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
to have all my dreams come true .

06. Do you prefer a kiss or a hug?
KISS .

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
i've lost enough .

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
save it so i can buy disneyland later .

09. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
too many to limit to three .

10. What makes you happy?
dodobirds ? =X

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
oh . i hate a lot of people .

12. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
best bboy ever heh .

13. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
teleportation .

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
SKIP . i don't like life questions . -.-

15. Any childhood memories you'll like to re-live?
i would rather die .

16. How old do you want to get married?
and i quote : hmmmm. MARRIED?!

17. Which cartoon character you hate most?
cow and chicken .

18. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like him/her?
APRIL FOOL'S . *coughs*

19. Write down one thing about you which people would be impressed of.
my ability to not sleep .

20. 2 things that describe you.
sexy and sexy . wheeeeeeeeee . LOL

-

nike .
just did it .
=p

01. What's your favourite fruit?
mango.(:

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
L.A (:

03. What’s your favourite thing to do?
Dancing ♥

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
maybe .=x

05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
to achieve what i always wanted. =D

06. Do you prefer a kiss or a hug?
ummm no preference. hahaaa=x

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my dad .

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
i'll spend half of it on DANCE CLASSES/COURSES . then the rest, i'll decide later.=x

09. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
nobody tagged. =x

10. What makes you happy?
when i dance in my own world, and with my loved ones(:

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
i dont hate. i dislike.=x

12. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
DANCING. DEFINITELY.

13. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
see through people's minds.(:

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
DANCE.

15. Any childhood memories you'll like to re-live?
nothing. no good memories.

16. How old do you want to get married?
hmmmm. MARRIED?!

17. Which cartoon character you hate most?
i dont really watch cartoon...

18. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like him/her?
YES. *AHEM*

19. Write down one thing about you which people would be impressed of.
do i even have anything? LOL

20. 2 things that describe you.
determined and strong HAHAHA.=.=

LOL.
james , do this!=D

(:

james says i love you too .

time to blog.
lol.
but im feeling super duper lazy.
and not only that,
i feel lazy every single day.
tsk tsk.
=\

training for 'dreams' was good .
haha.
and we finally did smth in popping.
i like the song used. very groovy. LOL.
and u knowwww,
sometimes i wonder why certain people can choreo so so so well,
but others just cant.
:(
-

training today was good, as usual.
but idk whyyy.
my body's not listening to me.
i cant even do a single leg lift properly.
sharp pain in my abdomen.
and thats bad-.-
and time to train on my split again.
zzz.
stupid left leg that always bend in when i lie on my stomach.
=x

felt superrrrr terrible today.
not in form.
:(
but things were better after training though.
lunch and movie session with RHR was dope.
lol.
-

went for adventure with joyce on thursday heh .
dope shit.
but in the end, we ended up meeting some stranger,
tummyache from drinking starbucks.
lol.
and dinner was smth spicy to cure the tummy.
lol.

-
realised i've been eating unhealthy stuff lately.
and food that makes u fat.
zzz.
i need to go and build my core muscles.-.-

im supposed to study for contract test on monday.
but im tired.
i wanna sleep.
-.-
-

rahhhh.
i wanna talk to you,
and keep you companyyyyyy.
LOL.

okay.
bye.-.-

today was a slightly better day .
i had fun with joyce.
thanks so much , dear girl.
for listening and for the starbucks too.
(:

i wish you will be happier.
life's unfair,
but like what diana says,
im here to make it fair for you.
if u want/allow me to.
(:

lalala.
subway subway subway.
movies movies movies.
dance dance dance.
james james james.
love love love.
(:

today's a bad day .
met weird people around,
and knew stuffs which i wouldnt like to hear either.

i dont like it when people assume things.
and people who think they're damn good.
probably there are people out there who assumes/think,
i myself think that im damn good.
or rather smth like, (joey thinks she damn good)
maybe i shld just say it.
im not good.
i know myself.
and im not as good as people like gin, ryan.
rahim, jean, raaz.
i know myself.
if i had portrayed myself in such a light that i think im good.
then
im sorry.
cause i've nvr intended tt way.
i just wanted to share dance.
really.
to people who doubt it, and who thinks negatively.
:(

people in this world are weird.
that includes you and me.

i really had a bad day.
for once,
i dreaded the long bus ride home.
i swore i could have cried in the bus.
and i felt this, tightness in the chest.
its horrible.

i need to learn to open up.
i cant, as yet.
i hope i do.
i'll remove anything thats affecting dance.
and joey.
dont anticipate.
zzz.

stay strong.
everyone out there.
there might be stuffs that unbalances you.
but do your best.
'build the core muscle in you.'
or rather,
'build the core muscle in your brain too.'
lol.

:(

bye.

im here for you .
no matter how hard its going ,
no matter how impossible it might be.
all you need to know,
is that i'll be here listening to you.
and be there for you.
trust me .

things that i say now,
might not be helpful.
things that i say now might only provide that moment of comfort.
all i ask for,
is for you to stay strong.
for thats all i can say.
im sorry.
for not being beside you.
i really loved to.
-

subway day today
was crazy.
50% off the subs price,
and u can see herds of aunties, and grandmamas flocking to subway.
god.
its like, literally.
and the boy that served me today?
please brush up on your english.
or no customers would wanna come yo .
'WANT ANY SOCKS?'
=.=
yes, like yours, please-.-
-

contract was fun with christine and eunice around .
we had fun talking, and doing work,
which i dont think got us quite far.
-

things might not seem smooth as yet,
but one thing's for sure.
chin says,
there will always be the sun around after the rain.
i thought it was true.
cause it happened to me before.
and to you,
no matter how many clouds there are,
blocking your vision,
just know that the sun is always around.
and it will be out, before you know it.
meanwhile, its okay to soak in the rain.
but not too much okay?
(:
<3.

-
just submitted BOE.
good.
just did service reflection in the afternn.
good.
french quiz?
not good.-.-
-

i love you .
to whoever sees this.
.

(: