i've learned that , in life, its your determination and will power that pushes you and gets you going. why are there so many different people out there? why are there emomo people, strong headed people, and people who cry at the slightest things? isnt it about your own willpower? i dont understand. life's like that i suppose. its not smooth sailing, its supposed to push you, and make you feel sad/happy/angry/frustrated/elated/pissed or whatever. but why cant people see it? is it because we're too occupied with the emotions on hand that we become ignorant of these small details? moping over what had happened isnt gonna help. in fact, i guess you should be doing something about it, thinking of how to turn the situation around right? i dont know. maybe some people are like that. nobody's perfect. im confused. sometimes i feel what the person is feeling. but i cant do anything to help. its like, you help, but yet he/she isnt helping himself/herself. so , maybe this is why emomo people are borned. they mop around, they dont help themselves. yes, actions speak louder than words. but isnt it like, you at least try? why is it that i see people not trying? or maybe i cant see it. thats all. i dont know. its the urge to be there, and help. but yet its not working. why why why. if u dont help yourself , and brace yourself up for the challenges in life, i guess its all up to you. whether you wanna stay happy, or just draw circles in one corner for the rest of life. for me, i would rather choose the first option. isnt it better? and if you think its right, then i cant do anything. the life is yours. you decide for yourself if ure gonna be brave/weak. it might seem tough. but as long as you perservere, i guess it will be alright at the end of the day. 'the sun always comes out after the rain' .its been stuck in my head ever since she told me that. but to you? does it even mean a thing? i dont know.
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deep thoughts run in chains. i just wrote what i feel.
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people kept telling me not to.
they told me its not workable,
its wrong.
they say i contradict myself.
i know all these.
but why am i still continuing to be like that?
have you ever thought that,
all i wanted is to be there for you,
to help you in every way i can,
to just go home and talk to you,
every single day.
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i know ure alone.
all alone.
i felt helpless when i cant help you.
i felt sad when u do.
i feel so much.
and there's so much that i can do.
but u know what?
its your heart.
open it.
ure just shutting yourself up.
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if u wanna keep everything inside.
im fine.
you dont wanna let me know?
its fine.
but being negative about it,
and keeping inside is wrong.
ure just ..
doing yourself a disservice.
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dont say no one understands.
people do understand.
you're assuming nobody does.
for at least my heart is there to hear.
and feel.
and understand you.
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maybe i aint that impt to you.
since you learnt that people come and go.
maybe i aint impt at all.
at all.