ytd's MJ concert was okay.
except of certain items which i tot wasnt tt good=x
LOL.

congrats to limin for her show.=D
i loved her doing tt zaki's piece.
v v v nice!=D
anw ks and yn was damn good too.
and ks ah! so nt professional!=x
when we shouted his name, he saw us in the crowd.
and just nice, he's doing a ' point' movement.
so he pointed in our direction and grinned.
aft the whole show, he did that agn.
wahahahha!

yn was good.
v happy for her, cause ive nvr seen her perform on stage before!=D
haha.
anw the pieces by the alumni were bad..
=x
sam's reggae was good:)
and jasmine's good too.

the highest guest perf would of course be trademark ah.
they are damn good man!
LOL.
but they forgot few steps.=x
LOL.

anw it was a good xperience to watch it la.
got me mentally prepared for concert.
ahahaa.
:)
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today's a leap yr!
dont waste this day away and head outside man!=DDD
ahahaa.:)

thats joey last yr.

HAHA.

=D

how diff am i now?

:)

i dont know what to say.
why do things always come with a sad ending?
=\

i hate it when people doubt for things im passionate about.
im a person.
not PERSONS.
where i can split myself to diff grps of people at different timings.
i felt v disappointed.

not attending class doesnt mean anything.
but how much would u noe if i actually pract outside.
ask ard.
and people can tell u i pract everywhere i go.
i even dance in the train.
meantally and physically.
-
its sucks for peple to doubt.
i hate assumptions.
so u better nt be another fucker who doubt me.
or i will just give up totally.
or even doing it myself just to prove to you.
stop testing me.

its so tiring.
to have to think bout how people think bout you.
i used to be happy as i got 4 close friends with me.
and they knew each other.
with diff cliques, diff friends and wadever-nots,
im at a loss.
timing always clash.
i dont blame u initally for doubting me,
********.
but u made me feel terrible.
happy?

i hate myself.
just die, joey.


' i dunno how much you have grown in poppin, tts all.'
this hurts like fuck.

oops.
been a v v v long time since im here to blog.
-

exams are here.
and its gonna be over tml.
econs paper was okay.
tort paper was shit.
and LSM paper was damn good.
i even had time to check my ans!=x

hmm would be busy with concert training den.
damn excited.
hope it would turn out good.
so far daddy and terence would be coming.
and so are my girls.
=D

sat's training at osch was dope.
the choreo was shiok ah.
its nice when she teach and u couldnt catch,
but manage to catch in the end.
haha.=D

oh yah.
i didnt sleep on sunday night.
was spent at alison's hse studying.
my god.
we were chionging tort la.
super shit right!=D
had mac bfast and i had 3 cups of coffee.
and tts bad.
=\
LOL.

i realised i must sleep.
if not i will fall asleep during the paper, like TORT.
ZZZZ.

anw studio's having recital.
so excited.
its like EVOKE all over agn.=D

held on 6-7 march, UCC.
would be joining i guess.=D
hahaa.

anw gtg .
study study and study=\

LOL.

What Joey Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

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this is all sooooo true.

got it from raazmy 's blog.

LOL.

like how i will put pressure on myself,

and abit too serious.

and the one bout being free spirit.

omg omg omg.

so true!=x

i suddenly feel like i have no true friend.

i hate trusting people alot.
i hate and yet, i did it.
wtf.

seems like i shld not treat u as someone dear, because u treat someone else tt way.
its ok, i learn and grow.
my heart is becoming harder day by day.

dance training.

today's dance class was productive.
it made us open our eyes, and also our heart.
to what we are doing now.

its great to have truth dawning upon us.
for we have already wasted 2 weeks while Gin is away in US.
to have your own instructor telling that u deproved as a whole team
just sucks.
-

i dont like it when people push the blame to one another.
i dont like it when Gin blame the seniors.
i dont like it when Rahim defended us.
i dont like it when we take the blame.

why?

i think we shld blame ourselves all these trouble.
i think we shld really reflect on our mindset.
seriously speaking..
why do some of us panic like shit few weeks ago oready, when we feel concert is nearing,
while some of them are just living in their own world.
=\

its our attitude, and commitment in dance.
i really dont see it as a team.
more of individuals.
=\
it hurts for me to say the truth.
but i have to.
and having heard her story, tears welled up.
i want to be like her.
i really do.

when sam mentioned bout the parents comign and all,
i feel the same way too.
although my dad agreed to come,
i can see myself in her postition a yr ago.
having to persuade him to go and watch me in EVOKE
and him leaving straight after the show,
without even looking for me.
tt sucks.
and to see so many people break down,
and the no. of hands raised that shows that their parents are not interested in coming to watch..
really hurts.
=\

dunnoe la.
at the end of the whole show.
u urself weigh ur own sacrifices, and efforts, to the loudness of the applause u receive from the crowd.

im very sure.
the cheers and applause received will be more den enough to cover everything.

TPDE, lets do a good show, and show everyone what we're capable of. :)

v day was spent at studio as usual, dancing. :)
supposedly watcng movie with banana and wonderwoman.
but i guess.. =D

anw,
jap roleplay was ytd too.
it was good, and i loved my grp.
how i wish we were classmates instead.=D
thanks shaun, cass and biyin.
:)

-
its just a normal day.

dance in studio was great.
less than 10 people, means more space.

haha.
smartz was there too.
so cute!=x

choreo was nice, and yeahs loved it alot.
spent the rest of the time talking to meichin after tt.
LOL.

exams coming, stress lvl getting higher.=\

ps. to the 2 unknown on my blog, pls tell me who u guys are!=x

its gonna be v day in a few mins . :)

i didnt expect so many responses to the qn i posted.
haha. :)
and to quizfrys and gestapo on my tagboard..
please tell me who u r. LOL.=X

-
to me, saying ' i love you' to someone is easy.
i seem to say it to people tat are dearest to me,
or even people i feel i can share the love with.
it no longer becomes the sacred ' i love you'
which could only be bestowed upon my boyfriend.

anw , it doesnt matter . :)
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i realised i've taken a liking to writing things that are in general.
it makes me feel that i no longer write / talk to myself through this blog,
after all, there is someone out there who reads my blog. :)
not saying that i intentionally blog my daily life, but yeahs.

sometimes, sharing your views on something general might make you feel better.
be in emothionally or wadever.
i feel so much at ease, somehow. :)

hmm. to those couples going out tml for a date, please cherish the time spent together.
im sure it doesnt take a day just to show your love for each other.
but if it does, make the best out of it. :)

to singletons out there..
all i have to say is,

when it comes, it comes. :)

-

happy v day!=D

ps. do give ur friends a hug tml alright? spread the love man! =DDD

just something i wrote on the 2 hr bus ride home.
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what is love?

to me, i dont understand all this things bout love.
all the rough patches in my past r'ships just scares me off.
i dont even noe how it feels like to be loved, and to love.
dance is everything to me..
after what had happened from the previous rships.
-
dance provides me with the love i need, i used to think.
but why am i feeling so much?
didnt dance provide me with the warmth and comfort i needed?
-
'i yearn for it, but i cant seek for it.'
'i seek to go somewhere, but i dont know where'

-
seeing so many couples around.
in some, i see love in their eyes.
in some, i see commitment.

wad exactly is it, have you wondered?

commitment, responsibility, infactuation?
i dunnoe.

-
will history repeat itself?
questions questions and questions.
-
heart feeling sore.
too much.
all of this seems impossible to me.
Fate plays tricks.
will it be my turn?
-

in case ure wondering the purpose of this post..

27 Dresses+The Leap of Love Novel by Catherine Lim, and its movie trailer + VDay

=

the purpose of this post. :)
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take a sec or 2 to think bout this.

what's ur take? would love to know.
:)

its always amusing to read other people's blog, and see that their lifestyles
are way sooo much different from you.

from drinking to having tatoos and all,
to even going to concerts.
is it really their lifestyle?

or is it their facade they want to portray?

i dunnoe. you decide.

but to those people out there, never neglect ur family.
im sure you had forgotten bout ur folks back at home,
while ure partying the night away.

:)

i want to DANCE!!

reunion dinner at uncle's hse. :)

grandma's bday.=D

bro.-.-



LOL.
just had my reunion dinner ytd.
was damn nice.

i feel so at home, and loved while eating steamboat.
its been ages since we had that.
like since when im sec 1?
yeah.
and to have steamboat agn, i feel damn happy.:)

grandma's bday was a week ago.
went out to eat at family's fav restaurant.
and shiok.
lol.
family dinner is damn nice.:)

ok i'll blog soon agn.
so tired.
yawns.

=D

im feeling so much better.

anw im still in modern. so yah.
will work hard.

and.

i just rebonded my hair.
zzzz.

i woke up at 6am.
and asked myself if that is really what i wanted.
-

went to osch in the morning.
it was supposedly modern training.
but ..
-

had a chat with ryan.
he told me alot of things.
i told him what are my probs.
and what i really want.
tt goes for joyce too.

and he said little.
but it meant alot.

' my definition of commitment is different.
not able to come for training = does not mean nt committed'

when he said that,
tears welled.

' as long at the end of the day, u produce wad i want,
and u r commited in modern, we can work things out.
we can always arrange the time.'

again, tears welled.

' dont stress! you look so stress! only i can be the one who is stressed! '

he smiled.
we smiled.
but.
im crying silently inside.
-

finally someone understood what i really meant.
just the few words alone,
and it made me cry.

he understands.
and i wont disappoint him.

' since u cant come training today, then why u come down just to tell me all this?'

and this is what i said.

' it is precisely i cant come for training, and i felt bad, tts why i came down to tell you personally.'

and he said, ; ' i appreciated it. really.'

and tt made me smile.

and this lasted me for almost the whole bus ride home.
:)

im sad that i have to drop modern.
its like dropping a part of dance away.

i have no choice.

things arent really gg well for me.
pray.
i need the strength.