its been 2 weeks since i started work and omg im feeling the effects already.

being a nocturnal animal now and mmmmm suprisingly i would wake up after like 4-6 hours of sleep when i just had 10-12 hour shift the night before. lol. think im gonna grow fat already because apparently if you dont sleep much, you will eat much more. and i think im eating alot to cover up for the lack of sleep.

but otherwise, work is fun. learning alot on the way but of course not a fixed job for me. its way too crazy to be a permanent job. heh.

gonna meet up with cleone tomorrow before work on tuesday. (:

just shut up and suck it all up.

dear love,

i love you very much.

remember our vows today(:


love,
joey.

coming home after a long day at work and finding all those stuff that you wrote is fucking upset and annoying.

majority of them are guys and that does not mean anything right. like, i do my work and they do theirs. i come home with stories to share with you but all i get is rejection and just a tight slap in the face. so you're not coming to talk anymore or you find it tiring to just talk to me on those days i can talk to you?

if you still have so little faith in me , then why am i being the foolish one holding on so tightly and not letting go?

you mean you dont love me anymore? i have feelings, james. i am very tired now.

told you so many times i really need you, but you can just let me go just like that.

so how much do you need me?

dear love,

goodafternoon. its 330pm now and i gotta leave house at around 530 for work. lol. it wasnt really busy yesterday at work so i guess its fine. and um i cut my finger while cutting garnishes=x LOL.

pretty happy yesterday too, cause i get to serve customers already. heh. like simple stuff such as mixers and champagne. oh and the bar supervisor let me do up B52 for the customers(: heh.

hopefully i dont have to wash glasses anymore after 1 month. LOL.

still missing you love. hope you're doing fine.

love you. and i mean it.


love,
joey.

playing games with your heart?

dear love,

please do not think i am . i really love you and i am really tired of telling you agn and agn because you know how i feel towards you.

if you find it so difficult to talk to me now, i'll leave you alone alright? i am hurting too but all i want is for you to be happy.

stop bleeding , and look into your heart . if you want me to leave you alone now, i will. just dont take too long .

i've already put everything behind and all i think of now, is you and our future.

love,

joey.

dear love,

its my graduation today. remembered how you said you'd would wanna come watch me during my graduation? lol.

anyway work was alright yesterday. not very busy as compared to fridays and saturdays like what they say. i work with 2 other female bartenders and 3 male bartenders. all of them were really accomodating and friendly towards me. like how they would make me stop washing glasses cause some glass broke and the shards cut my hand (i didnt break the glass , another bartender did. i just happened to be near her) lol. and like how the bar supervisor would stop me in the middle of washing glasses and teach me on the spot. i learnt alot yesterday and i can already memorise the housepours and the prices all in one day. =x

i hope you're doing well. i miss you alot, and i wont disturb you alright. just want to make sure you're okay . im still here thinking alot bout you.

i love you.

love,

joey.

dear love,

im going to write you a note everyday here and i hope you'll read it even though you want to be alone.

i hope you had a good day , and i guess you're probably at home right now. im gonna go to work soon and i'll be working my ass off tonight. please take care, drink more water and remember to take your breakfast everyday before you go to work.

i love you baby.

love,

joey.

if anyone out that doubts him or go against us, i'll still let everyone know again.

im never so sure before, but its him i want. he treating me like shit or whatever, doesnt matter anymore.

i really only want James Ritcher.

i really wonder if its right for you to portray your ex boyfriend in such a negative light on your blog. he was the one you loved once, and im sure he loves you too. given that he didnt talk bad bout you that much as you do on your blog, i think you ought to reconsider the posts that you've posted.

you might not know me , nor think that i know you. but judging from an outsider's point of view, i think you've seriously crossed the line . writing stuff like that on your blog isnt helping or gonna prove that you're the innocent party . after all, everything's over now. considering that you hacked into his account, dont you think you're at fault?

honestly, its not my perogative to judge you or the relationship you once had with him. but just by reading those posts makes me feel you totally have forgotten that was the person you once loved. fast forward, all these shit happened and you actually think its alright to write those stuff? mmmm you kinda left me a pretty good impression of you huh. lol.

likewise, if you happened to pass this blog, you may refute all that i've written or like you said, if people arent happy with what you wrote, they can use their index fingers to click 'close'. sad to say, i chose to 'listen' to your side of the story and apparently, mmmm. just shows me what kind of person you are.

good luck to you, and may we never cross paths in the future. (:

and to all couples out there, never forget who you really and once loved, before churning all your leftover energy after any breakups to hatred and anger.

:( :(

fuck fuck fuck.
i didnt hear my alarm . =\

i miss you baby. so much.

having second thoughts bout work now. :(


i love you baby.



:(

annoyed.

even before i start working, there are 2 places 'fighting' over someone who only has a diploma in law and mgt, no experience in bar and service.

like wtf? just when i accepted you, another side called and persuaded me to join them. its like poaching seriously.

and honestly, why why why?

just when im so sure of working for you, you made me think twice.

and i hope you know the money im earning now is for you. not even for myself honestly. maybe because i haven't told you. but really , i dont really care bout the money. its also whether i would able to make it as one.

so annoying. to think i have to make a decision even before consulting baby.

i dont like politics :(

interview day!

i am so nervous right now , im gonna pee in my pants.

lol.

two interviews later.. one at southbridge jazz and another at zouk.

(:

hopefully everything goes well! so excited and nervous and yak yak yak hahaha.

hope my baby's having fun with his colleagues later. (:

missing you already love. <3

christian delpech

although im not a bartender.. yet, i think he's crazy. like how WCO and elite force is to the dance world. (:

christian delpech, 16 times champion .

rainy day.

during this rainy day, i didnt really feel very gloomy after all, cause im gonna go meet gin up for coffee ! hahaha. i feel really happy cause she's back and im sure there's alot to catch up on. heh.

looking forward to receiving phone calls from the places i applied for . im pretty sick and tired of having to stay at home and not doing anything.. to the point of like, i will go out every single day. okay for the first few weeks, but not so after that. =x

baby and i are pretty much cleared up now.. heh. counting down to september and you'll see many many photos of us uploaded here.. (: thanks for the concern to whoever concerned haha.

currently on a wedges and ring obsession. haha. been looking at fashion blogs and figuring out many ways to mix and match my already-very-limited wardrobe. haha.

the above wedges are so pretty but according to baby , he couldnt find it at the stores. =\

the one with the woman from Late Afternoon costs freaking 502 bucks converted to SGD and does not include shipping yet. zzzzz.

okay im gonna go now. blog more soon!(:

like really?

first it was Tom Ford , fashion designer in 'A Single Man'.

and now guess what?

Karl Lagerfield for Chanel.

like seriously, being a fashion designer does not necessarily mean you must also be a director too you know.

haha this short film by Karl Lagerfield doesnt make sense. it only portrays how models out there party with the 'dancing' , boys and the booze. lol.

waiting for my boy to wake up . haha. <3

hello(:

hello, i am back(:

its been a long 3 months.

welcome home.

<3