honestly,


people have limits.
cross mine, and you'll definitely see a change in me.

im feeling so lazy now.
omg .
im supposed to do work.
zzz.

GREAT JOB TO REVOGUE, SUB, EPIC CREW !
heh.
we did awesome on saturday.
(:
i think we did justice to 'beat it'.
i could really really feel the rocker attitude while i was dancing.
probably thats how MJ felt when he sang that.
dope shit.
the crowd went wild.
i went wild too.
(:
hee hee.
cyphered in O bar.
its dope. everything's dope.
hahaa.
and we really had fun .

so today's mom's day.
watched transformers.
and seriously, the cinemas's packed like crazy shit.
we sat so front , lol.
but its all worth it.
for that 2 and 1/2 hours!
i laughed, i cringed , i stared intently.
it kept me there, for the 2 and 1/2 hours, which i think most movies cant do.
(:
dope to the max.
please watch it asap.
heh.

after the movie, we went to eat.
dome @ shaw centre.
my experience wasnt good over there.
waited for some time because the cafe is small, and we had to queue .
so there's this spot for two.
so we let the couple behind us pass first.
waited and when its our turn , went in and ordered food.
lol.
so when our first dish came , the waitress didnt ask , like whose dish was that.
she's like, put on the table and walk away.
i dont like that kind of service.
-.-
so i just kept quiet, and watched if the same service was given for the rest of the dishes.
apparently yes.
-.-
so , i got pissed.
i wanted to write on the feedback card , but i didnt have a pen.
so i waited .
till my mom asked for dessert. she asked for panna cotta. and she saw it when she walked in .
then when she asked the waitress, the waitress was like, ' what? whats that.'
honestly.
-.-
even i knew what was that.
so my mom had to walk to the dessert counter and show her that-.-
and funny , panna cotta in dome , is called 'forest cake'.
?
LOL.
then , i asked for a pen .
and seriously, i wrote whatever shit that came into my mind.
=x
i can get bitchy at times.
HAHHAA.

so we walked around after that, scouted for costumes at far east.
when we wanted , it didnt appear.
but when we dont need it , its like everywhere.
seriously annoying.
=x

then , went home after awhile.
lol.
bought some stuff.
(:
its been a long time since i got myself something .
heh.

-
talking to baby now.
lol.
missed him so much.
=\
poor guy got so tired from work.
wish i could do something bout it .
zzz.

school's later.
oh.
and grandma's gg to taiwan for the whole week.
seriously, say im mean or whatever.
but i feel light bout it .
if you get what i mean .
=p


bye!

just a short post before heading for revogue training. heh.

its been awhile since i posted.
haha.
been too lazy to do anything , and i seriously mean anything .
LOL.
i just wanna lie on my bed and stay there the whole day.

Jim Beam competition is tomorrow !
(:
pretty happy and excited to dance with my revogue girls .
lol.
i missed dancing with them so much during KO night, and now its my chance! heh.
hopefully everything goes smoothly for us tomorrow.
yayy.

school's started .
haha.
projects due arent too tough for now.
heh.
and SIP!
pretty excited cause the law firm im going seems nice.
(:

and i missed my baby like crazyyyy.
like really crazyyy.
hhahaa.
i did something stupid yesterday night though.
cause james and i barely talked as i returned home late,
so i really missed him and couldnt sleep.
so i stared at his photo, couldnt take it , and whipped out my phone.
took a shot of the photo and saved it as my wallpaper.
hahahahahahaha.
i know its retarded.
=x
so i slept , after a long time of staring and listening to his emomo song.
haha.
=x

okay , gtg now.
BE BACK SOON !=X

its seriously tiring to swallow the hurt, and spitting it out when matter arises.

do i even have a family that cares?

joey wonders why sometimes its so hard to achieve/get what she wants .

just a random thought.

do you have the feeling like,
sometimes when you really really wanted to blog bout something,
but when you come into 'create post' , you get turned off and not wanna blog anymore?
LOL.

yeah i agreed with joyce's post.
something bout ,
how you get irritated with one friend so easily..
but towards other friends , its a completely different thing.
why?
i dont know that myself, actually.
arent we all friends?
but how come we'll get irritated?
hahaa.
something to ponder about.

sometimes,
i look back at what i've done ,
and i actually thought im lucky in some sense.
really.
like,
i never ever thought that i could achieve so much.
never thought i'd gain so much.
of course, i haven't reached that stage where everything's good.
but sometimes, its good to look back..
give yourself a pat on the back and tell yourself that everything's worth it.
the sacrifices, the unhappiness and yes, the achievements.

everything happens for a reason.
be it good, bad .
no pain no gain.
i had my fair share of pain , to get all these now.
but somehow, i dont wanna quit.
i just wanna keep defying .
pushing myself against the current .
and at the end of the day , immerse myself in the momentarily pleasure.
as it accumulates,
it became something i need.
and thats what people at home dont understand .
lol.

i remembered a conversation with my grandmother yesterday.
i just returned home to rest , and i told her im heading out at 7pm for modern training.
she asked,
'didnt your dad restrict you from dancing?'
'uhh yeah but i dont care.'
' so, can you stop dancing yourself?'
'nope.'
'why?'
'cause i simply cant.'
'why dont you take up some other hobbies , like singing?'
i just stared at her, and said.
'i've never learnt how to sing , and you asked me to pick up singing just like tt? so whats all the dancing for?'
' and she kept quiet.'
lol.
i dont understand the logic.
if i were to stop dancing, and pick up singing .. and i head for like trainings and stuff.
wont she go like ,'can you stop singing ?' after awhile?
lol.
i really dont understand.
people say, parents dont wanna see their own children go down a path where they had never ventured before.
just to be safe.
so what happened to all the risk taking?
haha.
i dont know.
-

its a long post.
(:
i like to think through things,
question myself.
maybe sometimes it gets too much,
but yeah .
lol.

to lynette:
sometimes, all you had to do is to think of that person all the time.
really.
just endure .
perserverance.(:

okay .
my back is killing me .
going off.
ahhaaa.

training tomorrow !
weeeee(:

photos.

KO night yesterday was one of my biggest achievements to date.
honestly, i thank everyone for their support.
love you all.

to my partner,
thanks so much for everything.
really.
lets dance together soooon.
lol.
-

ever had days when you felt really fucked up, facing your the same problem
again and again?
ever felt like, you just wanna run away and not come back anymore?

it sucks , when you know the problem is always there.
and fuck.
it never ever goes away.
it always comes back to haunt you.

i felt helpless this time.
all alone,
stuck here all alone.
nobody can help, really.

*edited by your boyfriend*
james will help .

i need to go to japan badly.

updates tomorrow.
too tired.

i love my partner.
J Soul .

its a saturday again .
and that means,

KONIGHT.
(:
SEMI FINALS.

!!

im just gonna go enjoy myself.
no more restrictions!
JUST DANCE, FEEL THE MUSIC.
GO JOEY.
DO IT .
JUST DO IT.
=X


LOL.
IM TALKING TO MYSELF=.=

heh .
today's advanced class was good.
really really good.
(:
although i felt like a retard for not being able to catch what she taught.
hahahahaa.

gin taught us groove. (:
me like . hehhhhh.
and it felt really really good.
soothing and comforting , to that extent for me.
(:
honestly, i dont really know how to explain , but its as though i was really dancing.
dancing in my world, my own zone.
and for that 1 and 1/2 hour, problems that i had, didnt swim across my mind at all.
it felt so good.

then she made us do the 'jacking' thingy.
and i got picked out .
for the wrong reasons.
HAHHAA.
and i thought she was right, though.
i wasnt doing the technique.
i reverted back to my own style after like 4 8's.
lol.
sometimes, it isnt good to have too much.
need to be flexible.
=p

and she made us feel the music.
(:
and i realised , when im immersed in the music too much, i lose it .
haahaha.
she laughed when i did one step more than what she taught, cause im in my own world.
hahahaa.
(:

and i like today's class alot.
felt really relaxed.
in the midst of the competitions ,
its good to remind yourself , that you should be dancing , and not be bogged down by techniques , and self improvement.
to me ,
while i was doing the 'jacking' thing, the thought of me when i first started out dancing came into my mind..
and for that whole practice, i just smiled.
to myself.
(:

i danced from 2pm-930pm today.
trained in the afternoon for KO.
lol.

days like this makes me really happy.
-

i miss my love.
hope he's okay .=\

dear joey ,

i love you .
(:
happy 7th .

love ,
james .

wow, i havent been blogging much .
lol.
its friday already ! (:

so far, trainings are good.
life's good, with the holidays here.
i felt a lil more relaxed, albeit KO night , and Jim Beam coming up.
lol.

i had a class outing a few days back.
its pretty fun, i must say.
i enjoyed it alot hee and yeahhhhh!
ice skating's next !
lol.

reVogue's back in action .
hee.
Jim Beam , and probably Suntec waiting for us .
lol.
i haven't been resting since KO night started.
but im still loving it .
(:
and speaking of KO night,
its pretty scary that i actually reached top 4.
i have absolute faith in my partner, but none for myself.
lol.
my partner's too dope.
haahahaha.
but still, im gonna do my best.
its like, a bonus out of the bonus kind of thing.
to think that our main aim , was just to get thru top 8 man.
(:
and here we are, semi-finals.
flash back to FTL, we've definitely changed.
be it dance-wise/thinking.
(:

-
its the 5th of june.
2 more days !(:
and heh .
its amazing how much i can miss james.
we're not gonna talk tonight , and i miss him already!

'hello baby , if you're reading this ,
PLEASE SLEEP!
and rest , and eat ! LOL
and dont laugh cause i know you are laughing !'
HEEE.<3

-

okay.
gotta go shower and head out .
love !(:

'everyone deserves a second chance'.

but ask yourself,
do you think you deserved that chance?

something to ponder about.
(:
-

and so,
today's accounts paper.
CPA, to be exact.
it sucked really badly.
not because i couldnt give any answers to the questions.
but rather, i dont even know if im correct.
haha.

headed to get my contacts .
yay . im having blue and grey eyes soon.
lol.
and , headed to bugis to walk around alone.
not that im a loner,
but i thought it would be better since im gonna get some stuff.
haha.
finally bought the perfume that i wanted so loooonggggg ago.
(:

sentosa tomorrow!
with my class. hee.
so fun so funnnnnn . (:
suntan !=DDD
woo. lololololol. pretty excited bout it .
and there's night cycling this friday !
and there's this cypher going on this thursday.
wonder if i should go.
LOL.

finally some time to relax.
heh.
and i'd probably make it a point not to go home late for this 2 weeks.
so i can spend some time with my baby .
(:
hhaha.

and yes , back to training on wednesday.
i must work harder.
HARDER.
HARDER BETTER FASTER STRONGER ~
lol.

okay .
back to my sweetheart.
heee.

ps. congrats to SUB ! (: