do you have the feeling like,
sometimes when you really really wanted to blog bout something,
but when you come into 'create post' , you get turned off and not wanna blog anymore?
LOL.

yeah i agreed with joyce's post.
something bout ,
how you get irritated with one friend so easily..
but towards other friends , its a completely different thing.
why?
i dont know that myself, actually.
arent we all friends?
but how come we'll get irritated?
hahaa.
something to ponder about.

sometimes,
i look back at what i've done ,
and i actually thought im lucky in some sense.
really.
like,
i never ever thought that i could achieve so much.
never thought i'd gain so much.
of course, i haven't reached that stage where everything's good.
but sometimes, its good to look back..
give yourself a pat on the back and tell yourself that everything's worth it.
the sacrifices, the unhappiness and yes, the achievements.

everything happens for a reason.
be it good, bad .
no pain no gain.
i had my fair share of pain , to get all these now.
but somehow, i dont wanna quit.
i just wanna keep defying .
pushing myself against the current .
and at the end of the day , immerse myself in the momentarily pleasure.
as it accumulates,
it became something i need.
and thats what people at home dont understand .
lol.

i remembered a conversation with my grandmother yesterday.
i just returned home to rest , and i told her im heading out at 7pm for modern training.
she asked,
'didnt your dad restrict you from dancing?'
'uhh yeah but i dont care.'
' so, can you stop dancing yourself?'
'nope.'
'why?'
'cause i simply cant.'
'why dont you take up some other hobbies , like singing?'
i just stared at her, and said.
'i've never learnt how to sing , and you asked me to pick up singing just like tt? so whats all the dancing for?'
' and she kept quiet.'
lol.
i dont understand the logic.
if i were to stop dancing, and pick up singing .. and i head for like trainings and stuff.
wont she go like ,'can you stop singing ?' after awhile?
lol.
i really dont understand.
people say, parents dont wanna see their own children go down a path where they had never ventured before.
just to be safe.
so what happened to all the risk taking?
haha.
i dont know.
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its a long post.
(:
i like to think through things,
question myself.
maybe sometimes it gets too much,
but yeah .
lol.

to lynette:
sometimes, all you had to do is to think of that person all the time.
really.
just endure .
perserverance.(:

okay .
my back is killing me .
going off.
ahhaaa.

training tomorrow !
weeeee(: