its my 967th post under this blog. i think its so cool. hahahahahaa=p didnt realise that i've actually blogged that much . probably gonna hit the 1000 mark any time soon . lol.

so finally, the day's here. ITS BACK TO SCHOOL DAY! honestly, i have never felt so excited bout school. i swear. its like, yayy im still a student thing? working life as an adult sucks to the core. its not bout the rushing in the morning thing.. more of the i have to be more responsible than what i am now, have to finish up whatever that is not done and all. i cant imagine having to plan bout my expenses cause im not that kind of person. lol. hmmm and im wondering how Kirbie is coping right now. lol. must be plenty for her to do.=x lol.

oh, and kelly. haha that idiot wanna go to Cambodia/Vietnam next year. so funny. whats there to see over there? except for the kids that makes you really guilty that you're wasting food=p and she's still trying to shit ever since that day where she tells me she couldnt shit. LOL funny girl. (:

i hope sarita's doing fine. i kinda disrupted the way she works now, cause she usually goes to court alone and goes back to the firm after that, but i always followed her to court and we will go to the bar room sometimes. now, i guess its really weird for her=x lol.

this post are one of those posts that i typed at the spur of the moment. heh. probably thats why its so long=x

gonna go change soon. going to school to print notes ! (:

1. i dont like people to touch me.
2. i dont like people to touch my head without prior approval, regardless of affection or anything.
3. i dont like people taking their own time to deal with stuff.
4. i dont like people spoiling the atmosphere of the movie . eg. NEW MOON.

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1. i love strawberry sandwich.
2. im addicted to coffee. as in really no joke.
3. i love buying quirky stuff.
4. i think im like autistic or smth. =x

okay , rehearsal later at RP. like going to msia, so far LOL. gonna get our sweats ! yay!


SCHOOL STARTS ON MONDAY IM SO SO EXCITED.=D

and less than a month to my BIRTHDAY!

WONDERFUL PEOPLE AMIDST THE BAD.. (:

WONDERFUL PEOPLE AMIDST THE BAD.. (:

its heavily raining now despite the sun, and its all dark at home now.

not emo or anything, just gloomy after the bright bright sun disappeared into rain and dark clouds.

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Dear Diary,

Today I let the mask slip just a little and all the villains come flooding in.

While I don't expect you, as a book filled with lines, to understand my predicament, understand that I will be home late tonight. There will be blood on my costume. And the dishes will have to wait.

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training at 9 tonight , would back late.

feeling fucking terrible now.

i realised that sometimes, being observant is good enough.

you dont have to be expressive, you dont have to even open your mouth.
all you have to do, is just observe.

then, you'll find the little quirks in life, and be amazed at what you could find. (:

food for thought. heh.

all i have to do is wait. =\

haven't blogged in a week. hahhaa. must be the tiredness. lol.

life's alright so far. pretty normal. lol. 4 more days to freedom! pretty much excited but yet a little sad cause i've grown pretty attached to people like Sarita and yeah its probably tough to catch up since she is so busy and stuff. i've also learnt, not to be look at things at the surface. when i first saw Patricia, she wasnt really friendly towards me . and now? she calls my name at random times during work and offers me food (: Geraldine and Kirbie are the bimbos at work, and they are the ones that irks me sometimes. haha. but without them, it would be much much quieter at work though. =p

its not exactly a law firm i would recommend, but i've gained through inter-personal relationships and that made me open up quite abit. shijie told me that i've changed after N's incident, becoming more of an extrovert. i wondered if i really appeared like that though. lol.

the boss's bringing me out for tea on monday. i dont really wanna go, it would be awkward. zzzzz. recital vetting is tomorrow ! so excited to do an's item now. i think it looks really good after completing quite abit. heh. costume is such a irritating thing. after all the discussion, its back to like, grey sweats. -.-

whatever it is, its gonna be a good last week. (:


i miss my baby.

its OSIM tomorrow. sigh. things arent getting better. im tired and i dont know what to do. i dont want things to be this way either. but if its the fact for now, i cant do anything. and you know you cant either.

im joining spotlight boogie with alex. hopefully sam/amanda. faster confirm please. im scared zz.


goodnight world. its been so lonely these few days.

paranormal activity is so scary its crazy. the americans who watched it have reported sleepless nights after watching lol. im so glad our houses arent like that . zzz. and it even freaked the guy out beside me. i dont see guys being scared in horror movies before.

its a really good movie. they probably should get an award for it seriously. lol.

thank god for bei. if not i'd have walked down orchard road alone once more.

this hits so close to home. from the very beginning .. and at the ending.




i just wonder, when would it be our turn..

i need someone to comfort me now.

pretty depressing day. i got drenched in the rain. decided not to run because i'd still be wet if i walk or run anyway. work was good because im so free and i kept going into S&R's room to talk and stuff like that. imagine reading cosmo during work. Y's nice today. she hardly is like that. and celebration was fun because everyone is in a chatty mood and are yakking away but it got little boring so S and i sneaked back into her room . cosy and comfy. then left office with R&her . fun times at work. went to walk around alone because i really wanted to be alone and no point spoiling the mood if i went for dinner with the girls. got some presents for dad and people and just walking aimlessly till i reach Paragon and i went to sit at ochacha and cool, its my first time sitting down and drinking something alone and fuck its raining now and everything just feels so depressing, not to mention the underlying depressing stuff that im going through now.

and im feeling really terrible now. maybe i just need my bed.

its a friday morning.


at this moment, i dont wanna do anything and i just want to sleep my day away..

i had a really fun day. its so good at work today, and its rare that im not really complaining its a MONDAY. ahhaa. court hearing was fun though it was pouring. i really liked heading to court with sarita because of the things that she tells me, and each time i go out with her, i learn something new (:

dinner today was awesome ! i really had a fun time with chin. then joyce was left alone cause her training was cancelled and we were like going crazy with taking pictures and all(: heh its so so fun(: and and im so inspired to learn photography cause i realise taking pictures are really nice. and i like it when i can beautify it. =p

one mental note to myself though;

STOP THE CAFFEINE INTAKE.

I DRANK 5 CUPS OF COFFEE TODAY.

MOCHA, ICE COFFEE, LATTE, INSTANT COFFEE, YOU NAME IT. LOLOL=P

today's vetting was pretty alright i guess.. LOL. i wasnt really prepared , and i didnt warm up before that so i felt really 'loose' and not ready. lol. so basically i was shaking while im dancing . not stable at all! LOL. but anyway i love the other items. very very nice. (: its gonna be a good show. pity its gonna end really soon. zzz.

an's item was ummm.. mmm.=x i dont know why, but it feels really weird working with this bunch. and for a moment im so thankful gin and ryan mould us to become what we are now because there is really a distinct difference between us and them. funny at how we're so quiet. lol. and costume is really becoming a headache. hopefully i can get something fast tomorrow to show an. lol.

mmm. there seems to be problems happening in my friends. i wish for all their problems to disappear and for them to be happy again. heh.

till then. (:


ps. OSIM. I HATE MONDAYS BUT SINCE THE COMPANY'S STILL IN ITS TAIWAN TRIP IM NOT COMPLAINING !(:

i've finally changed the outlook of my personal space here. lol. been wanting to do it so badly, but i always lack the time, and the patience. now, i have the whole saturday to do it. (:

its a lazy saturday. had a nice brunch with daddy alone. it felt so good, even though i didnt really talk. he updated me on his business trips and informing me that he'll be away. silently, im just hoping that things will go well and that he would be safe for the trips. but yeah as usual, i just kept quiet, and nodded. we had brunch, and he sent me to the library to get this ..

yeah . this was the book that i wanted to get so badly the other time in 'rockstar' @ cine ! i googled it and found that its available in the library and mind you ive never stepped in a library for quite some time. LOL. so exciting. but im prolly still gonna get it though. its 42 bucks=x

anyway, so life's been alright, except for that horrible experience at work on thursday. friday @ work made all of it up, so im not complaining for now. lol.but oh, did i mention that my boss is a total bitch? i meant it. lol. dance is alright i guess.. stagnant but still surviving. im praying time passes faster now so that i can go back and dance and self improve. lol.

today's the 16th month with james . haha. it felt so weird though. like it didnt felt like we were together for so long. yeah we had our ups and downs , and times where we felt things were really bad.. but i guess its reaping its fruits. okay im just writing down when its inside my head but yeah thats it . lol. i love this guy so much that his status is definitely one notch above my family and i've never been like this. grace, joyce and the girls should know. im not a romance romance long term rship person. so count your blessings james ! HAHHAHA. just kidding baby . <3

so im here waiting for that asshole to come online lol.

its a saturday so play hard people ! (:

i love looking at photography books.

(:

today's probably the worse day of SIP.

the intern's the one who receives all the shit, who takes all the blame, who lets others get the credit, and definitely the scapegoat. i find myself in all those circumstances, and its beginning to irk me of people's behavior towards me. i do my work properly, i do more than whats asked. and yet i get all the blame. seriously, i really hate all of this. i was this close to shouting at Y for being such an ass. you think your S is so good? you actually treated her better than C and C is the better one at work. when she gave me the wrong thing just now, you actually laughed it off and just said something so simple. wow. so my feelings arent considered at all. im the one who spent an hour doing the shit and cool , just do it all over again. seriously, i dont have the time and i think youre just being v unfair to me. and chiding me for talking so much during office hours? wow. please switch on the CCTV and you know whats going on and who are the ones talking. fuck you. all of you.

yesterday was one fucked up night. today was a fucked up day. if tomorrow's a fucked up day, i seriously have nothing to say.


fuckers.

if you realised, we've always argued a few days before the 7th.

i wonder when will this ever stop.


i miss you like fuck.

i always wanted to blog, but when it comes to really blogging, im so lazy ! haha.

life's been nice to me today. i wish trainings would be this fun , people are much friendlier to each other, and more time with my best friend. lol.

if only time stops today.

joke of the day :

joey: VAMPIRE ! *shows snake movement*
elke & joeytan : HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA. *shows snake movement*

so fun !<3