sitting in the train.
crying silently.
hoping no one will see.
-

WAHAHAHHAAAA.

MR VINCENT VASOO IS A GUY.

so when im acting as vincent vasoo,
and i shld be saying,
MY GIRLFRIEND BROUGHT ME TO THE HOSPITAL!
LOL.

and not.

MY BOYFRIEND BROUGHT ME TO THE HOSPITAL!
WAHAHAHAA.=X

happy birthday kaiwen.=D

ahaha.

today was boring.
LSM is the same.
Nair getting bullied by us.
i guess tts the last straw for her though.
LOL.

then was client practicum practice.
seriously damn scared.
but yeahs. hope fer fer will be nice to us=D

-

tired.
need to sleep.
and happy birthday to gao mei 2o mins later.

LOL!=D

im still awaiting for ur return.
to the old 'you'.
please show me some hope.

i like this picture alot.

taken on sat by limin.

-

how i wish i could just stand by the roadside

and watch .

just to watch.

I know we're past tense
It's been a minute since
We were a couple and
Walking and holding hands
Kisses and I love you's
Doing what lovers do
Baby

Or baby that was then
(Cause now we don't
Talk no more
You gotta a new man and)
It shouldn't bother me
But girl it's driving me, crazy
And everybody says

(Boy why don't you just leave it alone)
But I don't think I can

[Chorus]
I sit up all night
Thinking 'bout ya
And I know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think that I
Don't think I can let go
Don't think I can let you go
Sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And i know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think, that I
Can let go
I'm holding on to hope
I know it's foolish though
Thinkin' that someday she might come back

Wish on it all the time
Knowin' it may never happen
But see I'm not a fool
Cause no we don't
Talk no more
(You gotta new man)
But, I'm gonna keep it safe
I've got the patience
That some lack...
But everybody says
(Boy why don't you just leave it alone)
But I don't think I can

[Chorus]
I sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And I know it aint right, baby
But I don't
I don't think that I
Don't think I can let go
Don't think I can let you go
Sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And i know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think that I can let go

[Interlude]
(I, I don't think)
Don't think that i can let you go
(I can, I can't let you go)
(I, I dont think)
I don't think that i can let go
(Let go)

Everybody says..
Hey
I don't think that i can...

[Chorus]
Sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And i know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think that I can let go
Sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya

And i know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think that I can let go
(I, I don't think)

Said i don't think that I can let you
(I can't, I can't let you go)

Said don't think that I can let you
(I, I don't think)
No, I don't think
(Let go)
Don't think I can let go..

Said i'll sing it again..
(I, I don't think)

Said I don't think that I can let you
(I can't, I can't let you go)


maybe i should just 'let go'.

its axactly how i felt.

the lyrics.

things are happening so fast.
until i cant even stop for a breather.
im lost.
v lost.

it was a terrible day.
i feel alot.
emotions.
thinkings.
thoughts.
=\

i've grown to think alot more.
more sensitive to my surroundings.
more aware of my feelings.

am i growing up?
-

i dont like it when people suddenly changed.
not for the better.
and not exactly worse either.
it hurts to see people u love change.
u will waste ur time figuring out why they changed, or why they became like that.
but the thing is,
do they noe tt they've changed?
it just struck in my heart.
a knife that had just pierced through my heart.

how i wished u had never left.
it seems like i lost you.
how i wish time stops and rewinds itself.
i wanna go back to tt time when we enjoyed each other's company.
i dont wanna lose you.
come back.
come back.

i dont noe why it affects me tt much.
staring into black space, thinking bout you.
even when im eating.
looking at families happily posing for pictures.
in my mind,
i see you.
why is that so.
=\

u have changed.
i dont need to noe why u've changed.
why u did this.
and that.
all i want for now
is for u to come back.
be the one tt i noe u to be .
can you?

nvm.
u wont see this anw.
even if u noe who u r,
i dont think there will be any change.
for u have oready became another person.

im just writing out how i feel.
kept in my heart.
for me, and my blog to noe.
loves.

my feeling will never change.

just be the old 'you'.
tts wad i need now.

its been a long day.
really.-

backtracking to ytd.
=D

had blood donation with alison and shereen.
shijie couldnt join us thou.
would be fun w her ard=D

had to go thru alot of stages before we can enter the blood transfusion room.
act it wasnt tt bad as i thought it would be.
in fact, i tot it was kinda fun=D
i kept my spirits up.
cause i knew it will help someone in return.
my blood=D

oops. though the after effects suck.
LOL=X

friday ;

had sch since 9.
was tiring.
i dunnoe.
i slept alot lot.
but still tired.

lcomm class was shit.
pohbee just came in and went on a rampage.
ahh wadever la she.
ass man.
ahahaa.
hmmm.
den crim law was..
okay la.
he tried to make a joke out of my jack daniels tee.
but it WASNT FUNNY AT ALL.
i just managed to give a mere smile.=x
oooooh. tt stalker nvr attend class.
happy=D

pop lock was fun.
i love his style.
for pop.
cause last time, b4 he got this new style,
i did exactly wad he did now.
so its like doing stuffs tt i did last time.
the ' old school' thing.
LOL!
hahahahaa.
lock was fun.
but fast. hahahaa.
=D

later gin's class at 9am.
wow.
LOL.

had fun talking to kaiwen.
somehow, i feel at ease talking to him too.=D
and well, he's sick.
like me.=\
drink more water people.
the weather's bad.=.=

okay la.
i update more later.
byebye.

sooo busy.
god.
LOL.

seriously, ive got loads of stuff yet to be done.
but i dont feel like doing anything man.
its like,
im tired.
wahahhaaa.

tort especially, was super duper tiring.
really kill cells man.
and thing is, i dont noe wad pok wants.
he want us to do research right.
we did.
but it doesnt fit in to wad we have in our issues larrr.
sian.
-.-
wadever.
-

crim law PBL coming.
another sian one.
property offences.
its EXACTLY wad we need to do in tort.
wahlaooooo.
everything linked to tort.
siannnn.=\
hahaa.

anw.
modern's later.
pirouttes, chennes, and plies.
wahahaha.
MADNESS.=\

okay. gtg.
off to gvss in an hrs time.=D
byebye.

he's finally back!
i missed him like sheet.
wahahahhaaa.
zomgwtfbbq.
LOL.

anw.
im so in love w bryan's choreo today.
and i realised the moment i like a choreo,
i will perform it damn well.
and got called out.
he even said me and yiwen danced damn alike just now.
-.-

hahaa.
okay.
im just happy.
HAPPY
=DDD

okay bye.=D

as you can see from the previous posts,

haha.

seems like i've took alot of pics right?

=D

a little update on friday ;

was CCN day.

dance had a booth outside library.

LOL.

alison bought me a cap which she tot looked nice on me.

haha so funny right.

=D

went to studio to wait for the seniors b4 heading for jam and hop.

and zomg la.

its bloody boring w the jamming only.

no hop!

so disappointing.

wadever larrrr.

LOL.

saturday ;

learnt choreo for girls only.

and the best part is,

we'll be wearing heels.

brought my court shoes la.

and i almost died.

wahahaha.

so funny seeing urself wearing heels when u are like in hiphop attire.

god.

LOL.

aft tt gin wanted to see the poppers breakers and lockers.

not forgetting jazz, reggae and contem ppl.

lol.

firstly were the breakers.

LOL.

and then poppers.

yeahs. got called out.

and without wearing shoe.

like -.-

den was locking.

didnt want to go out.

but tt danny lar.-.-

ass la he.

aft finishing his routine.

he pointed at me.

im like so not confident in locking can.

LOL.

.

den was reggae.

haaa.

other den sam ,

seems like no juniors can do la.

den ah foong shouted my name.

-.-

like huh

LOL.

can do really abit la, but not tt pro like sam.

ahaha.=D

contem was funny.

the people who took modern went out lor.

and was funny la.

cause almost everyone did sashays.

LOL!

jazz was funny too.

charmaine went out.

but it turns out she act did ballet lor.-.-

LOL.

hmm.

anw was fun la.

=D

oooh and corn did liquid dance.!

dope.=x

aft tt was shoe shopping.

seriously disappointed in not being able to find high cut.

but anw got my nikes from gallery @ pacific plaza.

super niceeeeee.=D

sunday was spent sitting in the dumb cinema w a whole bunch of kids watching the bee movie.

how nice.

-.-

i swear i almost fell asleep.

oh no.

i fell asleep.=x

anw.

will be teaching dance on wed!

yayness.

finally gg back to teach the gvss dancers.

its been a loooonnng time.=D

gtg.

byebye!

more photos tml.
im so dead tired.
sleeeepppppp=D
hahaa=D

hmmm.
these past few days were quite eventful actually.
LOL.

dunnoe where to start too.
LOL
-

today was tprawks hiphop workshop.
was fun.
in fact, damn bloody fun.
BUT oso bloody tired.
=.=
the first session was on stage with didi joyce and weirong.
w shifu teaching.
ahhaa=D
was good.
but dunoe lei.
we got too excited over battling.
so fayanne scolded us.
-.-

had a talk bout our conflict.
wahahaa.
over lunch.
and i guess its REALLY better now.
considering tt yeahs.
it seems to me we are getting on the right track.
LOL.

anw. 2nd session was fun too.
on stage was ah foong, pris, nicole and eunice.
LOL.
with jean teaching.
v fun.
the rawkers were fun luh.
but only a few.
ahhaa.
v tired, by tt time.
LOL.
-

3rd session.
last one.
was 'because of you'
rahim taught!=D
on stage was rinna junwei ah lee and beibei.
was damn fast, the way rahim taught.
but seriously we really tired.
LOL.
den last part was mass dance and some cheer.
LOL
we dancers had fun.
=D
did the mass dance with weiqiang. loves=D
he led me thru the whole dance la.
to think he still rmb.
LOL.
was fun luh.
and the BEST PART WAS,
we ran around the hall with all the rawkers's hand reaching out to us.=D
its like,
the feeling was shiok.
euphoria man=D
hahaa.

aft the whole thing died down,
we had debrief.
and yeahs.
headed home alone,
buying bubble tea w joyce and frank.
and im sooooo tired.=\
LOL.

tml's jam and hop.
more fun=D
hahahaa.
super looking forward cause i missed the previous one.
LOL.
anw

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY, FERENA AND KHAIRUL 2 HRS LATER=D

bye.

im seriously so annoyed.
by the fact that certain things happened in sch today.
-

rules arent meant to be broken all the time.
its like,
once we says its like tt,
and everyone agrees w it,
den i dun see the need to push the work to someone else.
or rather,
' SWOP'
honestly,
to me i dont see the difference.
-

its like, everyone got their own commitment and stuff.
so how can u say that u have tt particular work to do,
and den we have to do it for u?
i really dunnoe.

and if u think that im blaming u or anything,
den u have obviously MISINTERPRET my meaning.
i have no intention to argue w u.
but yet, u were so insistent that we swop the work.
so why not just tell me that i do it for u la.
i even approached u to tell you that i will do it in the morning lei.
u say lei.
who's at fault.

anw.
if u happened to read this now.
den just read lor.
i seriously think that it isnt my fault or gen's.
we oready done out part.
PLUS.

if u happen to tell this incident to everyone,
causing ppl to look at me in a different light,
go AHEAD.

MY CONSCIENCE IS CLEAR.

andreas. LOL. helmet hair.-.-
this was design on one of the topshop's coinpurse. nice la.=DDD

erika and me during crim law tut.=x
taken on the train. LOL!
happy meichin with her shoesssss=DDD

WJB=D love u guys thou i might spend lesser time w u all.=x
my friend sent me this. cute right=D
kaibooon ahhhhhh~ hahahahahahaha=x

hmmm.

how do i start today's entry?

=\

well, alot of things happened in such a short time.

be it happy or unpleasant stuffs.

i guess i dont really need to elaborate on it anymore.

cause it hurts to think bout it i guess.

today was a boring day.

went to town, get some stuffs and back home.

i was kinda reluctant to go la anw.

but den no choice.

LOL.

yts was shoe shopping.

sorry to junwei for not being able to make it for perf.

i hope u do understand.

yeahs.

and meichin got her shoe.

its nice=D

joyce and frank left for dinner while im alone w meichin.

spent alot of time talking bout loads of stuff.

and hahaa.

i feel much happier to share w her.

LOL.

beibei, btw left early to her relative's hse.

LOL.=D

anw.

just had a tiff with my bro.

it sucks to argue w him.

sometimes, i feel that im losing him too.

i find tt he's much closer to my cousin den me.

and yeahs.

tt sucks.

although how sucky he can be at times.

anw,

everything sucks for me.

wadever.

hmmm .

some people are like wondering why my blog posts and the person i portray all the time arelike worlds apart.

simply cause i dont like having to let people see the sad or depressed side.

if u look at a person.

would u rather he/she smile,

or appear sad and emo-ing all the time.

so i dedicate all my feelings to this blog.

be it happy or sad.

and yeahs.

appear happy so i can be tt someone for the person who is feeling down.

hahaha.=D

okay crap.

anw i wanna say a whole lot more.

but den sigh.

its too much to begin with.

bye.

wahlaooooo eh.
im sooooo tired.

LOL.

5 days only.
zzzz.=\

i cant believe it.

this is the first time,

i cried when i danced.

-

its modern dance ytd.

ryan taught us some freestyling stuffs and proceeded w the choreo.

i did not cry because im not picked out.

i did not cry because he scolded us or smth.

its the words tt were so inspiring.

imagine ur love for dance could be tt strong until

even though ur disc slipped,

u can still carry on and dance.

and only worry aft the choreo,

whether u will be able to move,

or be paralysed from waist down.

when i heard of his story.

i cried.

and when its my turn to dance.

he said to let go of urself.

let ur body move.

and there's smth in me tt holds me back everytime.

danny says so too
whyy.

i really dunnoe wads tt thing.

im feeling frustrated.

vexed.

irritated.

wad exactly is tt man.

=\

i dunnoe.

i cried.

im sad because i cant get the feel ryan wants.

im sad because i committed the same mistake uncle say i always do.

im sad because tt thing in me is holding me back.

wad to do?

=\

and to you.

please come back la.

its only been 3 days.

=\

its disappointing to see people changing from time to time.
especially when he/she is soooo bloody friendly and close to you,
and den
BOOM.

u see he/she turning colder to you day by day.

if ure feeling smth out of those few sentences, den i think u shld reflect.
if u think im talking bout you, den its u lor.
dont ask me who is it.
=D

-

today's 7th.
time passes so slow.
still got so many days more.
zzz.
=\



and to my eyecandy.
hahas.
althou i noe most prob u wont see this anyway.
but yeahs.
im not stalking u hor.
i just find u amusing tts all.
nothing else.
and raaz ah.
dont make me so paiseh can.-.-

LOL.
ookay bye.

im so tired~
i guess this week will be burnt.
practice everday till 10pm for soka perf on sat again.
LOL.

and learnt the choreo for shoot later at 130pm.
i super like the choreo man.
jean and raaz.
dope la.=D

okay.
gtg sleep.
im bloody tired.
mentally.

he must be enjoying himself at osaka now.
LOL.
wthhh.
come back quick.
sian.
its only been a day since u left.
and i miss u okay!
LOL.-.-

mic. =DDD
shin san and me=DDDD
our drinks.=D
suman=D
yiwen, onion karen and yanli.=D

yunning and me=D

our dinner on fri=D

ms locker/wacker. LOL.
nic and me=D

friday ;

LOL.

had pop's last lesson.

was good.

but somehow i was v offbeat.

i really cant concentrate.

im super distracted.

and in the end, still get called out,

which i tot i didnt deserve it.

yeahs.

=\

aft tt right.

yeah.

its bout these 2 girls in the train.

bloody irritating man!

they kept laughing and god-knows-wad.

i pity the guy standing right oppsite them.

he's like a retard, laughing at himself.-.-

until i couldnt stand it.

i said damn loudly.

' WAHLAOOOOOO EH. SO A-N-N-O-Y-I-N-G!=.='

woooo.

LOL.

aft awhile i think they get the hint.

so they moved to another cabin.

ahahhahaa.=D

and another incident was bout the pork satay thing.

wahlaooo eh.

so bloody paiseh.

refer to limin's entry.

LOL.=X

-

sat was terrible.

didnt go for training cause my stomach hurts like fuck.

and i spend 1/2 hr in the toilet.-.-

was late for class, but then gin wasnt there oso.

LOL.

met the rest in the aftnn b4 heading for lock w danny.

LOL.

night time was bbq at family chalet.

LOL.

sunday.

will blog later.

im super tired .

and its 2.50am.

byebye.

post more later. ahaha=DD