its been 2 weeks since i started work and omg im feeling the effects already.

being a nocturnal animal now and mmmmm suprisingly i would wake up after like 4-6 hours of sleep when i just had 10-12 hour shift the night before. lol. think im gonna grow fat already because apparently if you dont sleep much, you will eat much more. and i think im eating alot to cover up for the lack of sleep.

but otherwise, work is fun. learning alot on the way but of course not a fixed job for me. its way too crazy to be a permanent job. heh.

gonna meet up with cleone tomorrow before work on tuesday. (:

just shut up and suck it all up.

dear love,

i love you very much.

remember our vows today(:


love,
joey.

coming home after a long day at work and finding all those stuff that you wrote is fucking upset and annoying.

majority of them are guys and that does not mean anything right. like, i do my work and they do theirs. i come home with stories to share with you but all i get is rejection and just a tight slap in the face. so you're not coming to talk anymore or you find it tiring to just talk to me on those days i can talk to you?

if you still have so little faith in me , then why am i being the foolish one holding on so tightly and not letting go?

you mean you dont love me anymore? i have feelings, james. i am very tired now.

told you so many times i really need you, but you can just let me go just like that.

so how much do you need me?