reunion dinner at uncle's hse. :)

grandma's bday.=D

bro.-.-



LOL.
just had my reunion dinner ytd.
was damn nice.

i feel so at home, and loved while eating steamboat.
its been ages since we had that.
like since when im sec 1?
yeah.
and to have steamboat agn, i feel damn happy.:)

grandma's bday was a week ago.
went out to eat at family's fav restaurant.
and shiok.
lol.
family dinner is damn nice.:)

ok i'll blog soon agn.
so tired.
yawns.

=D

im feeling so much better.

anw im still in modern. so yah.
will work hard.

and.

i just rebonded my hair.
zzzz.

i woke up at 6am.
and asked myself if that is really what i wanted.
-

went to osch in the morning.
it was supposedly modern training.
but ..
-

had a chat with ryan.
he told me alot of things.
i told him what are my probs.
and what i really want.
tt goes for joyce too.

and he said little.
but it meant alot.

' my definition of commitment is different.
not able to come for training = does not mean nt committed'

when he said that,
tears welled.

' as long at the end of the day, u produce wad i want,
and u r commited in modern, we can work things out.
we can always arrange the time.'

again, tears welled.

' dont stress! you look so stress! only i can be the one who is stressed! '

he smiled.
we smiled.
but.
im crying silently inside.
-

finally someone understood what i really meant.
just the few words alone,
and it made me cry.

he understands.
and i wont disappoint him.

' since u cant come training today, then why u come down just to tell me all this?'

and this is what i said.

' it is precisely i cant come for training, and i felt bad, tts why i came down to tell you personally.'

and he said, ; ' i appreciated it. really.'

and tt made me smile.

and this lasted me for almost the whole bus ride home.
:)

im sad that i have to drop modern.
its like dropping a part of dance away.

i have no choice.

things arent really gg well for me.
pray.
i need the strength.