Friday, December 31, 2010

i guess its the time for self reflection..
(:
this year, i dont really feel heavy hearted like the previous years, scared and worried bout whats gonna come anymore.
i know that with God in my life now,
i will face the future bravely and will be a much more confident person !
(:

this year has been more of a downside , rather than a good year for me.
be it in terms of friends, relationship , and work.
nothing can beat the highlight of this year,
where God found me .
(:

i am really thankful to take the trip to Bali ,
and from there i realised that no matter what happens,
i will still have God beside me .
im amazed by how He found me ,
and i am so glad.
i no longer feel as lonely as before,
i have my sisters and brothers to worship Him with me in church ,
and i feel really blessed this year.
(:

although dance has been put behind this year,
it made me achieved my interest .
i learnt Bartending ,
and at least now i got to say i know a little bout what im drinking when i hit the clubs(:

today ,
Pastor How preached bout having bigger visions for the next year,
and it will be a year of reconciliation, with bigger dreams .
i am so happy and i am confident of being a better person , a better girlfriend, daughter and a dancer in the coming year.

i am so thankful for all the friends and although i didnt meet up with my friends and it seemed to them like i MIA-ED, but i know its all good cause at least i met really good friends like lesley. (:

im also thankful for the relationship with James.
although we might not be doing well for the past year,
at least we learnt more bout each other and are planning for the future together !
i also thank God for bringing this guy into my life,
and for making us realise that we really need each other and its more than just us seeing each other.(:

this year,
i've gotten so much closer to my father, and my brother.
i feel really blessed and i am determined to make my family more bonded than it is now.(:

for this year,
i pray that i will be a better dancer,
to gain back the lost time in dancing .
i also want to be able to go over to LA at least once this year,
and to take classes like what i wanted all along.

i also pray to be a better daughter, to earn money for my father , and my future husband .
(:
i also pray for a breakthrough in church, to be able to dance on the stage for God and my church.
(:
i know i can do it ,
and i will.
(:

its been a really crazy year.
but i know ive grown so much ,
and im prepared to be a better person next year.
(:


love,
joey.

Monday, December 27, 2010

birthday girl.

its my birthday today.

honestly, i never intended to celebrate it so its just another normal day with a bit of extra love from people around me.

thank you all for your wishes .


God Bless.

love,
joey.

Monday, December 20, 2010

at this point in time, i feel as though i need you more than you need me.

you meant everything to me ..
but what bout me?

i am human too.

i've ignored my feelings for too long.
everything that i do now is for you..

im sorry i got hurt , and it hurts you too.
i feel really lonely at this time.
honestly, i hope everything is real.
cause sometimes i cant even tell if its real.

gotta stop being naive.

nobody needs me .
haha.

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

how do i even celebrate the 7th when everything is just so fucked up.

if only u know why im doing it.

at that moment at the beach , ive lost everything .

i just wanna die honestly..

im so tired.

no purpose, nothing .

dumped just 3 days before my wedding day.

i have nothing left.

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

for the fucking last time , i swear i didnt . so fuck stop believing other people and start believing your own girlfriend.

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