i haven't been writing for long .

i guess i've went back to my old ways, hiding everything inside . and now

im probably facing the consequences.

exploded already.

if you understand what i mean.

take some time to watch this.

somehow, i got really inspired after watching it , and it tells me how much people value their day.

some people just need a smile from a stranger, some people want to have lots of money to make their day.

then ask yourself , what would make your day?

for me , what would make my day , would be to have my boyfriend beside me and happiness.

its that simple.

(:

and now , my heart's still unsettled.

my mind is scattered.

each time i wake up in the morning, i would be reminded at where i would actually be in Bali. at 12, maybe i'll be still at the beach or walking down poppies lane 2.

or maybe i'll be near my hotel and getting a Bintang beer from the local minimart.

but when i woke up today,

in my mind , it was just Bali.

maybe i havent been travelling for quite some time, so it gets overwhelming when i do. but this time, i havent really achieved what i want back there, and so i came back with a heavy heart.

hopefully, i'll be back at bali in december with baby .

im sure it would be much more fulfilling that everything that i've faced over there.

im also thankful for this trip, as it brought me closer to God, and it told me one thing.

that my faith is changing and who i can really talk to , whenever i needed guidance.

something that no one can influence me , no one can tell me to follow.

because what i've experienced at Bali , is what God have given me.

(:

i'll write more next time .

whenever i wanna write.

right now, i just wanna think bout Bali and how much i miss that place.

(: