hope will always turn to disappointment.

wonder why is it that each time we have to be leave and talk unhappily.

just that few words and u got me to leave. its okay.

someone can talk to you better than i do.

i'm here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than depression and I am braver than loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.

“

how to cope ?

barely surviving.

i dont say things i dont mean.

i really love you.

crying my heart out tonight.

just let me be.

i really missed you.

goodluck for your presentation baby.

i wish the scenario i asked you to imagine will come true one day(: except for the farting part lol!

love you sweetheart. (: remember your meals and to spray on my perfume ! heee heee.

*kiss*

(:

its been some time since i've blogged. lol.

right now, im just busy working and working, learning more stuff as i go along.. including about people and myself.

i caught karate kid yesterday with the mom and brother and it felt really heartwarming. i felt inspired too. and i realised, sundays and mondays are days that 'belongs' to me. i dont exactly fit in the environment at my workplace.

there's a customer who also said to me ; 'hey you dont look like a bartender you know. haha.' and true enough i guess. i was never meant to be in that kind of environment.

i have so much more to write bout, but as usual i always get stuck. when i come to blogger, i just shut up completely. finding it more difficult to open up again, even in my very own blog space.

weird isnt it?

Try:
If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me

sometimes i really wonder how much you trust me.

yeah and im always the bitch in your eyes.

happy anniversary to us in advance.

its the 23rd month .

ended off with a bad note.

its the 7th tomorrow.

i want some 'me' time.

spending it alone again . its okay. (:

dear love,

work was alright yesterday.. its boring and the customers at the bar was countable with our hands u know. LOL. =x

it was pretty alright cause i learnt more. like the supervisor taught me more stuff and i learnt how to make mojitos yesterday! heh . like , once i learnt i made another 2 orders straight. now i can say i know how to make my favorite drink. lol.

i hope you're doing fine too. as usual, im here online but you're not around.. anyway remember to take good care of yourself alright? pamper you on sunday, our special day. (:

love you baby boy. miss you so much.

love,

joey.

ps. i dont know how you bold the words. LOL!

dear love,

thank you so much for the love letter hee hee. such a suprise when i reached home in the morningggg(:

mmmm work yesterday was bad. terrible in fact. i hated it . and i used the wrong amount of spirits for sex and the beach. i thought i was so screwed. and some fucked up customer wants me to do up barcardi apple for him just cause im a trainee. zzzz. but i knew that so its fine . lol.

eric's being a bitch sometimes too. like he's so perfectionist. lol. and i couldnt really make drinks cause he thinks i cant do it yet. lol. annoying .

gonna work later at another outlet but i think its better cause there's certain annoying people that are not working. and i'd be thinking of you too love.

i love you baby. remember to take your meals as usual, and sleep more okay? dont worry bout me ! i always worry bout you. i miss you always. and take out my picture if u miss me alright. (:

love always,

joey.

love letter=p

dear love,

goodmorningggggg. its my night shift today again.. and i hope it wouldnt be too busy though=p im eating my noodles as i talk to you right now ! haha silly boy, next time go get your dinner before rushing home to me okay. dont eat instant noodles too much!

eric the new bar captain is working with me today! i hope he doesnt screw me up too much or i'll get really screwedddd. lolol. and no more washing glasses i hope! its gonna be one month soon! if not i'll just get eric to get me my card=p hehhh.

i love you baby boy. thinking of you every moment . remember to think of me too and not AHEM AHEM. =p

love,

joey.

my baby's complaining that i dont write love letters to him anymore so here i am hahhaa. funny at how he will address it as love letters. silly boy.

dear honey,

its the 1st of june ! and 6 more days would be our 23rd month together. (: time passes so fast and it seems like we're together for so so so long ! many many obstacles along the way but im very sure we'll pull through ! heh. oh and im so excited to see you here. your itinery is packed . fully packed with lots of fun with joey. =p and time to redeem your gifts=x LOL.

i love you with all my heart. i mean it . (:

to the boy i love the most,

joey.