its raining heavily since 4pm just now.

i spent the whole day, thinking bout you . bout us. waiting for you to come online even though you told me you wont be here till night time.

its really bad staying at home for me i guess. i think alot. of all the possible bad things that could happen to me , and to you.

but also good things, cause i imagined. alot bout us together. and that gave me a momentary point of happiness.

i read the book on life. just when i thought my life's screwed up enough, i read of people who faces so much worse than me. and their greatest fears.

i dont know. all i know, is that i need you here .

and for you to please stop doubting me anymore because its becoming too painful to bear.