i find it really funny that how people can say that the girl/guy is his/her love or like, the only one for him/her and when they break up and proceed to find another partner, they say the same stuff. lol.

how many times can we say that? i find it all so contradicting , and weird. like, with our current partner we can say that we love that person and he/she is the only girl or guy for me but in the end when things turn ugly.. it doesnt work this way already right? lol. just a random thought. heh.

fucked up morninggggg. zzz okay actually i cried a little cause it got so overwhelming. imagine coming to office and then you see your boss already at your desk writing some stuff and then she proceeds to tell you like , all the amendments to be done by today . and she piled the work on your desk and for a moment , it feels like i cant take it anymore.-.- and she said that i wasnt focused. like wow, how can i not make mistakes when i had so much work to do and the secretary isnt really helpful. lol.

the afternoon was much better though. went for nice lunch , and came back to clear the leftover work and im pretty much free from 4 plus pm . lol.

SIP is tiring me out . im deproving in dance. i suck . =\ i dont think i even dance as well as last time anymore. sigh.

hope everything will get better for me . i wish i could fly to LA now and stay there for as long as i like. mm or maybe not even come back. really.


gonna rest awhile before the boyfriend comes. miss that boy so much . :(

i love this photo. when will it be my turn?=x
joyce's birthday celebration!

stupid working area=x

yeah yeah yeah (:

omg seriously seriously need to wake up .

things to do : earn money . go to LA. go to Japan. go and dance dance dance. be an instructor.

zzz.
wake up joey!
not good enough ! zzzz.

andye j ( in grey) check asaki out ! the girl wearing the checker shirt. i like her!

mari's new piece !

touching pieces. dope.

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i really hate everything now. having to endure all this shit , listen to things that i dont wanna hear, facing the person that i've grown to detest. all this built up shit . its crap , everything's crappy. i hate heading home early. i hate it when she starts nagging at me . i hate it whenever she tries to approach me but end up nagging at things even when im not wrong or anything. i dont care if it sounds minor or just listening to the angsty side of me , but how bad do you think it can get , when i even fucking dream of her nagging at me in my dreams? its that bad and its most of the time . so fucking dread everything.

took the bus home today. saw this small kid with his mom. wonders how its like when im young . whether i had the same treatment as the small kid . apparently not . and it caused so much hatred and sadness inside. why do i keep to myself? why i feel reserved when i dance? i kept things inside. how do i even let it all out? it might just drown myself. i dont know.

each time you made me feel like giving up. make me feel that its better to leave . you never fail to push me down and make me all upset whenever you're around. just leave me alone please? is it that difficult to understand? you made me talk less at home . you made me close up. you were the one who caused me not wanting to talk at home. everything started because of you.

dont make me hate you. be it you nag for my own good or whatever. i'll just plug into my ipod whenever you talk. is that what you want? even when i cant hear you, you're still nagging away. awesome. good job.

i have so much inside me . its all because of you and the fucked up family. seriously.

dont talk to me.

say you will (:

Ohhhhhhhh, ohhh ohhh, oohhhhhhhhh
Ohhhhhhhh, ohhh ohhh, oohhhhhhhhh


I never met a guy so sweet
someone who knocks me of my feet
i never knew that it could be,
until I met you baby
you never met a girl like me,
i only wanna make you happy
i never knew that i could be free,
until I met you baby


Bridge

(all i wanna do)
lately all that i wanna do is..
(is spend all my time with you)
every second,every minute,every hour
(i can't let you get away,)
cant go nowhere,
I need your loving everyday..

ooooh yes i do.....


Chorus

Say you still feel the way i feel for you
(yeaaaaaah)
say you will do the things you promised to
(yeaah)
say you love me the way that i love you
(saay)
say you will , say you will


ohhhhhhaa, yesss
Never knew a love like you
(to do the things that you do)
you never seem to lose your touch,
That's why i love you babyyy
i travel around the whole wide world ,
and i say that I'm your girl
Never had these feelings,
until I met you baby


Bridge

(all i wanna do)
lately all that i wanna do..
(is spend all my time with you)
every second,every minute,every hour
(i can't let you get away,)
i ain't gon let you go no ,
I need your love in everyday..
baby sayyy .....

Chorus

Say you still feel the way i feel for you
(Do you feel me)
say you will do the things you promised to
(baby say you will)
say you love me the way that i love you
(ohhhhh baby)
say you will (ohhhh ohhhhha), say you will
ohhhh wohhha

Bridge

Baby all i wanna do ,
is spend all my life with you
Have three four kids by you,
and have some more if you want me to
i done gave up everything ,
so now it's time to give me that ring
so baby say what you feel about me ,
say you feel


Chorus

Say you still feel the way i feel for you
( ohhh i need you to tell me)
say you will do the things you promised to
(i need you to do it)
say you love me the way that i love you
(please baby please)
say you will , say you will
(say you will)


Ohhhhhhhh, ohhh ohhh, oohhhhhhhhh
Ohhhhhhhh, ohhh ohhh, oohhhhhhhhh


(:


i love you james . <3

you know how?

you know how you always fantasize bout certain things and you always hope that it will come true but eventually the thought/desire just dissipated just like that?

you know how you always expect the same person to be there for you and when they dont you get all panicky and angry and everything negative?

you know how you always take someone for granted and when the day comes where he/she is not around you regret it crazy?

you know how you ever felt so down, but eventually you dont feel anything anymore cause you're too used to feeling down?

you know how you always had those 'if only..' moments until you felt so sad you dont feel like it anymore?

you know how you always felt so helpless and down until youve decided that maybe going away is the best option?

mmmm.

interesting . .

im happy today ! (:
really really happy.

went for popping training today. its fun ! especially when we were sessioning . omg dope. no stress , just pure dancing . maybe im still the same as last week but i feel good. as in, i really dance. hahaa. and the songs are dope. thanks ben , for the Legend's new album !(:

bubble tea with diana afterwards ! lol. talked, and walked around . sat on the bus , and we kept commenting on street names and houses ! hahahahaa. LOL. its a nice sunday. me like (: heh. talked, bitched, and gossiped. bout JAMES. hahahaahhahaha=X

LOL.
i wish my boyfriend's here real soon ! LOLOLOL. BABY FASTER !=X

and sigh monday again! but its gonna be an awesome week. plenty of activites lined up! lol. and and and and and must session soon ! POP POP POP I LOVE POPPINGGGG(:

heh.

i realised ive blogged lesser and lesser ever since SIP started. lol. really really hard to find time to blog even though im on the net most of the time. and work really makes me feel lethargic and everything negative. the only postitive thing is after work time, where i go for dance or just go home to wait for the boyfriend. lol.

been planning my trip to the boyfriend's country lol. hopefully everything could be fast, and smooth. ive got so much to do with him, and to dance of course. thinking bout alot of stuff too. heh. realised i cant work, and dance at the same time. too tiring. lol.

been looking forward to weekends but when its here, i just feel like doing nothing LOL. its like waste of time, i should be doing smth. haha but oh well. lol.

missed dancing, missed busy dancing, missed everything bout dance. felt so noob now. LOL.

and i miss the boyfriend. been falling asleep while talking him and making him wait cause of that. i felt so guilty all the time !=x

popping tomorrow. (: and lunch with diana. at least its a sunday well spent.(: haha.

15 months and going strong(:

goodmorning babyyyy(:

i love you. its been 15 months already !

wish you could really come soon. so looking forward. we'll be together, and do things together !(:

and sweetheart, you're a 'part' of me as of today. be proud okay not all girlfriends are like that. LOL!

love,
joey

PS. do you know i shit in the morning everyday after drinking coffee and eating my bread ?

HAHHAA.

sorry just came to my mind after drinking my coffee.

and yes, now's the shitting part.

BYE!


MONDAY BLUESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS *CHANTS*=.=

say hello to my new friend!(:

ps. its a freaking monday. talk bout monday blues . . zz.

its raining now ! :(

hate rainy days. having instant noodles for lunch now while its all gloomy . wheres the love :( :(

family's out. waiting for time to pass to meet the girls . hopefully dinner would be all warm and cosy. i miss my baby . wish he's here to warm me up . boo.

recital training tomorrow ! looking forward to it . i think i suck though, feels like i cant dance esp after gin's class. LOL. need to maintain ! haha.

life sucks. with the natural disasters and stuff like that. i felt the tremor on thursday though. i thought i was like , dizzy or smth but noooo i felt like im gonna topple. -.- fucking scared lol. and ytd was the fire drill for suntec . honestly, i have a phobia of stairs now. try walking down 32 storeys high. and so narrow ! i got giddy cause i kept staring at the stairs to prevent myself from toppling over. suck big time. who's the genius who invented lifts . LOL.

its 3.07pm. HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL ! time to take out the laterns and be some cheena person carrying the latern . LOL. love the piece of mooncake the pantry lady gave on friday. awesome. (:

oh , did i mention how dope is the pantry lady? she's a grandma . and she can speak/write english ! omg . like she's probably 60 plus to 70. and she's so cool! how many grandmas out there can speak/write english? best of all, she carries gucci/burberry handbags, and wears blazors to clear the wastepaper baskets and stuff like that. i think she's really funny but whoaaa. pantry grandma. i dont think she even needs the job. probably spending her time working instead of staying at home looking after her grandchildren.=x

i miss dance. so much! i've only been dancing once a week. :( sigh. MUST start dancing. dont care tired or not. lol.


alright, gonna go get changed and head out before the family comes back.

oh my , i havent been blogging . and its friday already lol.

TGIF!


court hearing tomorrow. excited much ! (: