i had this really really really huge urge to write about something , after seeing a particular photo on facebook.
not that im against the photo or something , it just irks me to see that face there. once so nice, and after a whole lot of things that happened, lets just push it all to a mixture of ego, pride, and greed.

talking bout remembering the roots huh.

sidetracking a little , frank , joyce and i had this talk bout blogs. usual stuff, like how blogs are meant for your own self , and it has been subjected to many discussions on the stuff that was written in the blog. lol. so , if anyone knows what im getting at, then good for you . and im writing this down , because i've been wanting to write this yesterday, but i've not been getting down to it.

and back to the picture.
lol.

it feels so sad , to see something like that happening . i mean most people might say , its a result of poor self control by himself/herself, and that greed/ambition would be the culprit here. is it worth it , to go against so many people? and most importantly, going against your own conscience? okay, maybe not that serious, but still. -.-

pretty upsetting, and when i faced that person , i feel so weird. like i dont know that person anymore. no longer the person that i used to know. a lil distant? perhaps. and it sucks.
sigh.
anyway, it doesnt really matter anymore i guess, because i believe he/she will know it one day.
just dont come crawling back , asking for forgiveness.
dont really know why im saying all these. but i swear its the photo that starts all of these !=x
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and i had a really weird dream today. uh yesterday night . um this morning. whatever-.-

i dreamt of my partner in FTL. and this time , he's not battling with me . he's watching me .
and the arena is somewhat like, Juste Debout style. hahaha . and and i was ALSO THE DJ-.- then i was supposed to battle someone . and its freaky , because that someone is AN AN. =.= same person i battled for FTL. lol. then , because i couldnt find the song that i wanted to use in my battle, i made everyone wait. lol. and an was on the phone with someone , and she scolded me for taking so much of everyone's time. LOL.-.- then , the scene switched, to me dressing like what iris wore during her photoshoot on sat. hahahahahhaaa. so lame . and then it ended there.=x

i've been getting more dreams lately.
weird.
=x

sorry for the weird blog post format. deep thoughts comes in chains.=x

probably props time later. (:
gonna bum around awhile more. LOL.
bye!