awesome day yesterday .
heh .
went out to catch a movie, and had a drink before heading home .
LOL.

started the day with me accompanying joyce to get her pay,
and then heading towards town for a movie.
lol.
caught the movie with serene joyce and chin.
and yeah .
'he's just not that into you' is a nice movie.
but kinda forgettable.
and probably most of the lines used in the movie doesnt apply to us here.
=x

then had dinner with joyce and chin .
thai xpress (:
and had fun talking .
going to 'balcony' was a sudden decision.
lol.
had the urge to drink ,
and so instead of going to clarke quay,
we headed there instead.
and its fun.
martini is yum (:

headed home afterwards.
it was fun .
heh.
and i realised,
after ladies night.
i learnt something .
lol.
i need to grow up.
literally,
as much as i dont want to.

sigh.
as i walked to the bus stop,
i felt calm.
and suddenly i felt really nice.
being alone.
crazy it might sound,
but yeah this 14 days without james might be beneficial too.
lol.

i need to go now.
im really tired.

i need my own brand of heroin now .

I Have Never vs. T.O.D

hmm . where do i start ?
its been a long night/morning for me yesterday.
heh .

(:

-
went to rebel first, headed to put our bags, and waited for chin serene and iris to come. lol.
then headed over to Attica to get some drinks , and its pretty fun .
i like cranberry vodka! (:
then went into the dancefloor, but it sucked cause we felt really out of place,
and girls there are like, wtf.
lol.=x
drank quite abit , but not drunk. haha.


so headed back to rebel, by then the dancefloor was full already .
then, danced and yeah got grinded . zzz.
saw a popper there too. heh .
got bored, and headed to The Arena, where i had lychee martini.
and i got asked to dance with this guy who said something really funny.

' can my friend dance with you?'
im like , okay.
and then guess what.
his friend= him.
-.-
left really fast, cause he started asking alot bout me .=x
and that sentence got me pretty disturbed.
' are we heading home anytime soon?'
-.-


back to rebel , and stayed all the way .
many funny incidents, ( like how one guy flirts with a girl)
and its fucking funny .
=x
i would love to go back there, someday . (:

-


pretty much like that,
and a night full of last min decisions.
made 2 new friends . (:
and definitely a morning worth remembering ,
though i dont think that we would be meeting up anytime soon.
lol.

its a wild night .
and i felt really happy.
genuinely happy, because its so different from my life.
a break away from the routined life that i lead?
thats what i need.
thanks girls . and guys. LOL.

drank quite abit .
heh.
reached home, and cant sleep.
but i still did , anyway.
heh.
-

and omg im stoning in front of the comp-.-
gtg. movies time !
(:

its a funny day .
really. lol.

OB was okay , i think.
probably wont fail, but depending on how much i get.
(:
and i went to the wrong classroom .
for the first time in my study life-.-
so embarrassing.
hahaa but i had other friends with me too .
LOL.
and christine was like, cursing .
haha.
then after we got into the classroom , we saw avi inside.
that asshole.
LOL.
he knew bout the classroom but yet didnt tell us . zz.
wasted 5 mins of reading time as a result.

and after the paper, christine and i discussed papers.
and she reminded me of a theory that i forgot.
and you know what .
its me who told her bout the theory that i forgotten .
wtf?
zzzzzzzz.

and dope.
i TOOK THE WRONG BUS HOME .
must be the lack of sleep.
hahahaha.
i alighted at some kuku busstop, and took whatever bus that goes to the interchange.
lame shit.
reached home , and it RAINED .
i was half drenched.
and went to sleep cause i slept for 5hours only.
lol.

woke up, had dinner , and talking to james now.
that guy's leaving for battle tomorrow.
:(
hopefully , everything goes well for him .
and i will be spending the 7th alone .
probably dancing .
lol.

accounts on wednesday .
(:
last paper.
and i wanna hang out , and catch up with my friends!
missing them so much .
like chin , sam , kat, serene.
(:
and diana !
movies(: ahahaa.
i wanna watch 'slumdog millionaire', 'he's just not that into you' ,
and ' valkyrie' .
dope stuff(:
im missing my life.
its so boring now.
studying studying .
lol.

i wanna dance, i wanna session with jeremy ,
i wanna watch movies, i wanna go have fun with the girls.
(:

2 more days to freedom .
i can do this . heh.

and one more day
to talk to james.
boo.
:(

-
all of a sudden , im feeling very sad.
sigh.

i miss you baby .
and although my head's throbbing now,
i cant sleep.

i wonder how i will pass the 2 weeks .
LOL.

okay.
counting sheeps starts now..

bye.

today's paper was okay .
i thought it was bad at first.
but after the discussion,
i thought maybe ..
not that bad after all.
(:

headed to popeyes for dinner with ally .
and had a long talk with her .
its nice .
(:
and fun too.
hahaa.
printed notes ,
and she saw the schedule james did for me .
LOL.

-
and i reached home late today .
baby waited for me ,
and i felt realy really guilty.
sorry love !
talk to you longer tomorrow.
i bet im the first person who apologizes about being late right .
=p

-
gonna study like mad tomorrow.
gonna catch up with the topics that i didnt finish on time.
lol.
-

me having headache now .
i miss dance.
zzz.

gonna sleep.

bye ! <3

everyone's leaving .
i hate the emotional part about it .
being emotionally attached,
and having to detach myself.

lynette's left for australia.
and she's not gonna come back for some time.
i wished we wouldnt have to say goodbye.
but i didnt anyway, cause i know she would come back here.
waving goodbye to her was probably the hardest thing .
and though i promised not to ,
it just spilled out .
:(

lynette, come home soon kay ?
i miss you.

-

coincidentally,
everyone's leaving me.
literally , in a sense.

dad left for business trip to vietnam.
lynette left for australia.
diana is leaving for philippines.
james is leaving for prague.
joyce is leaving for malacca.
joyce , and serkiat is leaving for china.

wtf.
when would it be my turn .
=\

i went for a swim , after i reached home.
it felt good.
just sitting there in the pool, with no one around.

went back home , and followed the schedule james made.
lol.

-
hope joyce is okay.
drink more water, girl.
(:
-

im feeling queasy.
-

growing up's part and parcel of life.
sometimes,
i really wish i cant grow up.
and i'll stay like that forever.
sigh .


bye.

joey is feeling very common , and normal.
and i dont really like being normal and common .
sheesh.

i think my boyfriend's crew is dope.
because , they dope = boyfriend dope= travel for FREE.
wthhh .
lol.

i will miss you.
but ,
im sure you will enjoy yourself throroughly and be happy.
good enough for me .
(:

i love you.
=p

temptations.

i suddenly realised.

i need more clothes badly.
LOL.


and .
i wanna go sentosa.
i wanna go clubbing.
i wanna watch more movies.
i wanna hang out .
i wanna go night cycling .
i want a slumber party.
i wanna dance like its the last day on earth.
i wanna meet james. like NOW.

life's too short.
zz.

argh.
after exams !

this year,
valentine's day was spent different with the guy i loved.
(:

we talked the whole day away .
talked bout all sorts of stuff.
from horror movies,
to our future house .
heh .
7 storeys baby .
=x

im glad.
its been a wonderful v day with him .
even though there's no movies, no dinner and no flowers for me ,
im happy.
=p

i love you honey .
(:

dear james,

happy valentines day (:

dont be sorry , for not being here for me.
for not bringing me out ,
for not doing the things that couples do on valentines day.

we're special.
lol.

i wont be upset, cause i know i have you in my heart,
and thats all that it matters baby .
you're the dopest boyfriend ive met ,
and thank you .
for being here.

i would want you to go for your battle,
because i want you to spend your first battle with your crew.
so listen to me alright ?
i'll be at home anyway,
so just come and talk to me after that.
(:

i wish that you would be the first, and last boyfriend that i spend
valentines day with .

i love you james.
my valentine (:

im feeling definitely much better than yesterday.
its a long story, just felt very unjustified.
and i dont think i wanna explain because it might just be taken as an excuse.

am feeling very lost now.
dont know what my sense of direction,
dont know whats my future.
dont know whether i could achieve my goals.

-

i need to find answers.
zz.
probably time to save some cash .
the world revolves around money isnt it .
-.-

-

heading to the movies , and to the airport ,
to study.
been a long time since i went there.
and back home .
looking forward to talking to baby .
my source of comfort and warmth .

sigh.
i wonder how i would do without him .

and i meant it .

today's a fucked up day .

just.
fuck .
off.

its wednesday . lol.
and there's lecture from 11-1pm today .
and after the lecture, there's nothing on .
so i went to get some stationery,
head home and had lunch .
then after using the computer for awhile,
i felt sleepy so i went to sleep.
and WTF.
i woke up at 8pm.
-.-
i slept at 4-5pm.
damn .
felt really guilty for wasting the day away .
lol.
-

its shijie's birthday , and sam's on tuesday.
lol.
back to back heh.
hope they enjoyed theirs, just as how i enjoyed mine last year(:

-

yesterday's conversation with james is funny .
cause i dont really remember some of it anymore.
guess im really sleepy .
heh.
and that kuku posted part of our conver up here .
LOL.

sometimes , i really wonder why i like weird guys .
=x

-

workshop we had was good.
met some nice kids, and the not-so-nice ones.
there's some retarded ones that made raaz very pissed off .
HAHA.
funny to the max.
but its all good.
had a couple of kids touching my hair.-.-
and some dreadlock guy i met on the way ?
he's weird.
LOL.
-

okay ,
guilty-ness is overwhelming .
back to studying !
OH.
and psycho presentation tomorrow.
WISH ME LUCK.
:(

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
LOL .
nevermind hehe .
blog ?
lol .
i'm tired .
=/

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
can u blog.=x
lol

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
OKAY .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
what .
dont like right
its okay u know.

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
hahaha what !

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
nevermind dont need already

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
i said okay !
LOL .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
dont need

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
ARE YOU CRAZY .
LOL .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
dont need

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
OI .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
lala
what
!
NEVERMIND

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
maddddddddddddddd .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
SOMEONE'S RELUCTANT
ITS OKAY
NEVERMIND
NEVERMINDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
ITS OKAY
ARE U IGNORING ME

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
LOL .
ARE YOU CRAZY .
I SAID OKAY !
LOL .
HAHAHAHAHA .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
NEVERMIND SOUNDS LIKE IM FORCING

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
LOL .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
ITS OKAY U DONT HAVE TO U KNOW

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
NO YOU'RE NOT .
HAHAHAHA .
STUPID HIGH WOMAN ARE YOU ON DRUGS ?

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
REALLY
WTF

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
LOL .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
U SCOLD ME STUPID

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
NONO .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
OMG
NEVERMIND

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
NOOOOOOOOOO .
OMG .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
NO NEED BLOG ALREADY

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
SORRY .
:(

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
IM EMOMO ALR
BYEBYEBYE

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
joeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey . :(
*tearing*

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
DONT PRETEND !
NEVERMIND
DONT BLOG
ITS OKAY

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
oiii .
:(

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
heee heeee .

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
:(

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
*kisss* i'll be back in ten .
me go toilet
!

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
you're verbally abusing your boyfriend !

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
whatever .
HAHAHAHAH!

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
OI .
WHAT .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
brb brb !

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
OKAY .
FINE .
BYE .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
OI
PETTY!
my bladder's bursting
BRBBRB
BRBBBBBB

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
WHATEVERRRR .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
!!!!
BIMBO.

james + joey = jaime jaden jessie . says:
!!!!
BITCH LOL .

joey . 舞 ; popper (: ; ☆ . says:
OH.
MY.
GOD.
i'll deal with u later assshole.


see see she's always verbally abusing me ! LOL .
KOO KOOOOOOOO !
i still love you . ^_^

there's always a tinge of guilt whenever i stay at home.

why cant i just shake it off?
zzz.

sometimes i wish i would never return home.

awesome day spent at lynette's yesterday .
pretty fun night, i must say.
we had spaghetti, cheesy mushrooms , potato salad,
popcorn, mash potatoes.
LOL.
we even baked brownies in the middle of the night !
heh.
talked bout school stuff,
and some korean stars.
lol.
watched dvds later,
and i dozed off.
oh , and we drank too.
grace is so so so funny .
she's gone .
LOL.
literally.
she was blabbering nonsense ,
like, ' the moon's so beautiful today'
wtf?
(:
then she walked to the room and slept on the bed.
heh.
awesome night .
glad i went , and am very glad my close friends are still as close as before.
(:
-

and so,
its sunday .
reached home at 7am , and slept for 3 hrs before heading to meet mom.
and we watched curious case of benjamin button.
(:
very nice show, but i didnt expect it to be so sad.
lol.

then it occurred to me .
is dying old better, or dying as you grow younger?
the 2nd one sounds very appealing to me.
but after watching benjamin button,
its scary for both .
lol.
and i got pretty scared.
cause im afraid of death , and that show makes me even more afraid.
=\

i dont know .
felt sad after the show.
but its a meaningful one .
so, go watch it !
(:

-

i miss james.

absence makes the heart fonder.
so, so true.
:(

its the 7th today .
(:

seemed like a long time ,
and its also our 7th month.
heh.

funny at how this world goes about .
even when 2 person who lives at different sides of the world,
they can actually get together.
(:

many times,
when i explain my relationship to people,
it never fails to amaze them.
and similarly for me ,
i still feel overwhelmed.
even though its 7 months.
but its overwhelming in a good way .
(:

whenever i feel down,
i feel happy.
i feel like crap,
i daydream in class,
i talk incoherently,
all i think bout , is one person.

and thats james (:

-
im suprised that i did something for him.
im usually a person who doesnt show,
but im glad.(:
i hoped he's happy.
because he happy = me happy.
ya ya ya .
cliche ,
but true. =x

amazing 7 months together.
all the heartaches, joy, and the yearning .
im still stuck with this guy ,
and im hoping the day that we will meet would come sooner.

i love you baby .
i always do.
smile more, handsome .
heh .
<3

baby's turning psychotic!
lol.
he posted my emails to him.
madness.
=x

today is a relief.
heh.
TGIF!
and im really glad this week is going to be over.
so excited.
=x

i think i need to mention this .
LOL.
can imagine badd and harris's blog talking bout me .
heh.

stupid badd secretly filmed me down ,
in reaction to harris's annoying actions .
lol.
when i watched the vid, i felt so dumb-.-
sighhhh.
annoying kids.
=x

-

its the 6th today.
a few more hours to 7th .
and im happy.
(:
(except for the fact im having psycho test tomorrow . sigh .)

i love my baby .
(:

its been a tough week.
lol.

cant really blog much .
cause i dont know what to blog bout .
lol.

but m glad james is feeling so much better .
as a result.
im feeling better from this depressing week too.
heh.

and yes,
im glad he had fun with his crew.
lol.
black panthers.
HAHAHAA.

and awesome thing ryan told me after modern class.
i felt so happy.
the only thing in this week thats nice.
lol.

okay .
nothing else to say .
lol.
bye.

dance was okay today .
lol.
somehow . it made me feel happier.
momentary release of pain .
sigh .

-
ever wonder how it feels like when your partner feels upset , and in pain ?
i guess, you would too .
inflicted on you , as though its some virus or smth .
lol.
but nevermind .
im sure he's alright .
or better.
cause this boy's strong .
as a bull.
both mentally and physically .
at least he had me supporting the weight from behind . heh.
-

wont be talking as much anymore.
but i understand.
and i know he's going to do himself proud.
and be that dope bboy i've known .
(:

baby ,
i love you very much .
and you matter so much to me .
just hang in there, and be happy.
i'll do my best to cheer you up.
just like the joke i've told you.
hee.

(:


with love ,
joey.

all i care for now, in my life.

is for james to feel better .
and to find himself back.

i hope God hears this .

:(

1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
hahahaha mmmmm i think i'll know after i get kissed on the lips LOL.

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
i want to sleep in !!

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
samansarii LOL

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
nope LOL.=x

5: Would you ever donate blood?
i've donated before !(:

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
of course . LOL. when im younger .

7: Do you want someone dead?
no, im afraid of death . of course i dont want others dead. -.-

8:What does your last text message say?
joyce: they say tml den see the slides LOL i think i might just die hahahahhaa. LOL.

9:What are you thinking of right now?
james my baby (:

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
baby (:

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
4AM! ZZZZZ.

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now ?
FOX ! (:

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
yes of course.

14: Who was the last person to text you?
JOYCE (:

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ :
1. james
2. joyce
3. joyce
4. grace
5. diana
6. serkiat
7. maggie
8. nelson
9. lynette
10. alex

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
FRANKIE .=X

16: Is 3 a male or a female?
female .-.-

17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?
HAHAHAHA. NO LINK . LOL.

18: What is Number 1 studying about?
he doesnt really study .... LOL!

19: When was the last time you had a chat with them?
not too long ago for all . HHAHAHA.

20: Is Number 4 single?
yes yes yes hahaa.

21: Say something about Number 2.
SHE'S DOPE.

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?
LOL. they will fight all day long . LOL

23: Describe Number 9.
blur girl. LOL

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight?
there's nothing to watch LOL. cause i think they wont be talking to each other . LOL

25: Do you like Number 8?
i like him . AS A FRIEND (:


LOL.(: