today's an eventful day again.
i learnt so much more.
be it about happy/sad/disappointing things.
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i realised that i really have grown up.
mentally.
as of today.
i realised so much moreee which i didnt see, initially.
as i said, it only takes one person to advise me, and i will feel so much better.
life's unfair.
really.
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people think differently.
some think that you are good, some think ure not.
some feel that you are lacking in this, but someone else think differently.
all i can say is that, you have to follow your heart.
listen carefully, and make the right choices.
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ive fallen, and i learnt to get up on my feet.
i know my mindset is wrong, and this will be the time i find myself back.
im not someone who takes it hard, and continue being emomo.
i know thats its my fault for thinking like that, and im willing to change.
i hope those who have changed, will realise this too.
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i've grown tired.
ssame as joyce.
tired of how people think.
and their comments.
i hate the atmosphere of being pressurized to do exceptionally well.
then again, i know its good for me.
i really wish nobody forgets why we're in TPDE for.
cause we love dance.
and we wanna share the love together as a whole.
not competing with each other, occupying every corner of the studio to do the 1 min.
it sucks.
the feeling.
i hate to compete.
really.
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yes it hurts to know that you're not chosen for performances.
but you learn from it.
do self evaluations, and believe opportunities will come .
and not harping that you're not chosen, and kicking big fuss, making excuses.
cause i just realised thats pretty shallow to think that way.
it doesnt matter how people judge you anymore, cause u know yourself,
if ure doing the right thing.
u dont need people to remind you.
this is your life.
not someone else.
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i like it when people get frank with me and move on.
i dont like it when u keep demoralising me, and u dont help in providing solutions.
bryan said.
u give people comments, and u help provide solutions.
dont give general comments cause the audience can also say similar things .
and move on.
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i seriously think everyone have changed.
be it the world, people you're close with or even acquaintances.
humans are selfish.
its sad to acknowledge that fact.
and thinking that people whom you treat very nice,
will treat you the same way too.
thats fucking stupid.
to think that way.
yeahs.
i got sooo much to release.
its wlays that i couldnt.
im tired of trying.
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owell.
LOL.
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performance for engine orientation is good.
bryan's class is good.
dinner with sam dreas iris is good.
LOL.
tml's regatta and jamnhop.
excited, but yet.
sigh.
LOL..

okay gonna sleep.
i hate this world like fuck.
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