what exactly is joey feeling?

affections?
loved?
or just being emotional?

just when i thought things were starting to pick up again.
it seems so surreal.
seems like everything is happening in a vicious cycle.
which i cant get out.
its really freaking me.
to see all the different events unfold in front of me.
is this what i wanted?
is this what i had chosen?

questions questions and questions.
im supposedly able to answer the questions.
why not this time?

i feel my life's so screwed.
everything's a facade.
or rather,
everyone.

i just want to live in my own world.
is that so hard to achieve?
im tired.

i really am.