being in a long distance relationship is tough.
no one ever said it was easy.

why am i waiting for someone that i've never even seen before?
because i love him , and i trusted him so much that i've never questioned bout his life.


why do i feel like the person that i trusted the most , doesnt trust me at all?

its only 2 days short of our one year.
and to think such an incident could either break or make us stronger.

i hope its the latter.

im sorry, but you really broke my heart this time.

i thought i've made the right decision in telling you.
but why does it seem like i made the wrong decision?

to me,
i dont think im at fault.
i did not initiate, neither did i allow.




neither did i cheat on you.

so, its been busy these few days training for jim beam and schoolwork.
lol.
with my grandma overseas, its harder for me .
had to go home, clean the house and head out again .
not that im complaining ,
but yeah , can get taxing .
lol.

yesterday was an eventful night.
my god.
its pretty scary though.
and yes , the amt of people going definitely matters.
ahaha.

i miss james .
=\
looking on the bright side,
the 7th is coming .
(:
ONE YEAR.
even though we cant be like other couples, heading out for dates,
im still happy with this guy.
heh.

gonna do some work now.
been procrastinating like mad.
bye !