there's always a tinge of guilt whenever i stay at home.

why cant i just shake it off?
zzz.

sometimes i wish i would never return home.

awesome day spent at lynette's yesterday .
pretty fun night, i must say.
we had spaghetti, cheesy mushrooms , potato salad,
popcorn, mash potatoes.
LOL.
we even baked brownies in the middle of the night !
heh.
talked bout school stuff,
and some korean stars.
lol.
watched dvds later,
and i dozed off.
oh , and we drank too.
grace is so so so funny .
she's gone .
LOL.
literally.
she was blabbering nonsense ,
like, ' the moon's so beautiful today'
wtf?
(:
then she walked to the room and slept on the bed.
heh.
awesome night .
glad i went , and am very glad my close friends are still as close as before.
(:
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and so,
its sunday .
reached home at 7am , and slept for 3 hrs before heading to meet mom.
and we watched curious case of benjamin button.
(:
very nice show, but i didnt expect it to be so sad.
lol.

then it occurred to me .
is dying old better, or dying as you grow younger?
the 2nd one sounds very appealing to me.
but after watching benjamin button,
its scary for both .
lol.
and i got pretty scared.
cause im afraid of death , and that show makes me even more afraid.
=\

i dont know .
felt sad after the show.
but its a meaningful one .
so, go watch it !
(:

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i miss james.

absence makes the heart fonder.
so, so true.
:(

its the 7th today .
(:

seemed like a long time ,
and its also our 7th month.
heh.

funny at how this world goes about .
even when 2 person who lives at different sides of the world,
they can actually get together.
(:

many times,
when i explain my relationship to people,
it never fails to amaze them.
and similarly for me ,
i still feel overwhelmed.
even though its 7 months.
but its overwhelming in a good way .
(:

whenever i feel down,
i feel happy.
i feel like crap,
i daydream in class,
i talk incoherently,
all i think bout , is one person.

and thats james (:

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im suprised that i did something for him.
im usually a person who doesnt show,
but im glad.(:
i hoped he's happy.
because he happy = me happy.
ya ya ya .
cliche ,
but true. =x

amazing 7 months together.
all the heartaches, joy, and the yearning .
im still stuck with this guy ,
and im hoping the day that we will meet would come sooner.

i love you baby .
i always do.
smile more, handsome .
heh .
<3

baby's turning psychotic!
lol.
he posted my emails to him.
madness.
=x

today is a relief.
heh.
TGIF!
and im really glad this week is going to be over.
so excited.
=x

i think i need to mention this .
LOL.
can imagine badd and harris's blog talking bout me .
heh.

stupid badd secretly filmed me down ,
in reaction to harris's annoying actions .
lol.
when i watched the vid, i felt so dumb-.-
sighhhh.
annoying kids.
=x

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its the 6th today.
a few more hours to 7th .
and im happy.
(:
(except for the fact im having psycho test tomorrow . sigh .)

i love my baby .
(: