think. process. talk.

i never intended to come.

wow.

put words into my mouth again.

thank you very much.

my heart is hurting so fucking bad .

you tore my heart apart.

i just wanna die now.

this used to be last time.

the weather is cold.

i need a hug now.

especially from you.

-

sometimes what she does really contradicts herself.

you think im useless, and wondered what dad have done wrong to have such a daughter.

but today,

i find you at my bedside, cleaning my drawers even though my aunt asked you not to.

you just told her, 'its okay, nothing to do anyway.'

are you doing this to make up for what you've said to me or you just wanna help?

i dont know.

Roller Coaster
To dream that you are riding a roller coaster, represents life's frequent ups and downs in your waking life. You are experiencing erratic behavior brought on by yourself or a situation.

Staircase
To see a staircase in your dream, symbolizes change and transformation.

To see a bully or be bullied in your dream, signifies repressed rage. The bully may be seen as your shadow Self which you have rejected.

i am really v angry now.

zzz.

sometimes i really wonder how much i mean to this family.

i dont think i deserve to be unloved.

1097th post.

i love you my baby.

happy 7th.

i came across something i wrote last time , while packing my stuff.

love is a mutual feeling between 2 persons over a period of time, overcoming obstacles together, sharing joy and sadness, and emerging better persons at the end .

im still very much in love with you.

(:

i have so much to say..

but whenever it comes to writing it down,

i dont feel like it anymore.

lol.

what an irony.

its like reading a sad story of someone.

instead of feeling sad for the person and offering something,

all that was seen was, 'oh why ? ah just forget it'.

it sucks, really.