im tired, you're tired.

i know it, and you know it.

i love you and you love me.


the wound is still fresh, raw and hurting.

not your fault. its my fault. i expect too much.

i just wanna run away.

the distance between us is so near yet so far apart. definitely further than how the two hearts are placed.

i never thought it would be so painful to be like that, to see couples walking on the streets together.

i've never thought i'd feel that i dont belong here, because of the ungracious people in this country, and all the ugly sides to it.

i never thought that im in rship that no one would probably understand, and all these while i thought i dont need anyone there.

you came into my life and created a whirlwind . but is the whirlwind dying down?

im confused, and i know you are too.

maybe we're all too stubborn.

i think i suck in dance.

or am i expecting too much from myself?

the world is a realistic place. especially in the dance scene. although you can be friends, u have friends.. at the end of the day, its all about the ability. no such thing as , 'oh you're my friend, i would like you to grab the opportunity.'

i find it very disturbing that this is happening, but probably this is the way it works. all i can do now is just to do my best. i dont need to prove to you how good i am , neither do you need to judge how well i am. as long i know we all have different strengths and weaknesses.

im determined to make this work. but do you dare say you are continuing what you're doing after we leave school?

so disappointing. maybe its time to grow up. stop being naive. lol. the world isnt kind to you, joey.

and am i a good and capable dancer?

even i am doubting myself, thank you very much.