its tiring having to keep ur hopes high, and being strong at the same time,
and just when u thought everything is going well for u again,

everything just sinked.

dropped.

maybe its just me.
or that, i care too much.

im not sure myself either.

anw.
depressing stuffs would always be around.
wth.
-

results wasnt that good.
i kind of expected it cause my heart wasnt in the paper when i did it.
so yah.
im just glad i passed every single shit.
yeahs.

and
performance is coming up.
friday is already the full dress and marking of stage.
AND.
i haven complete the formations and stuff.
HOW NICE.

hmmm.
actually i oso got think of ah.
as in like.
why am i recruited into RHR in the first place.
do i really belong there?
or there are other reasons bringing me in to the group.
=\

had a nice chat with nel ytd night.
i felt so much better.
cause i noe im telling my stuffs to a person whom i trust alot.
and that he feels like a older bro to me.
and of course,
his craps and jokes never fail to me happy.
at least for a while.
yeahs.
-

im struggling to stay strong.
and i must have faith.

yes.

faith.