i think im feeling somewhat like tt. LOL.
Listen, to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but cant complete
Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you wont listen
Listen, I am alone at a crossroad
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You dont know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh Im screaming out and my dream to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or burned
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen
Listen, I am alone at a crossroad
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say whats on my mind
You should have know
Oh now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now i've gotta find my own
(bridge)
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, If you won't
Listen, to the song here in my heart
A melody I started
But I will complete
Now i'm done believing you
You dont know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find my own
My ooown
Thursday, March 08, 2007
is your life smooth sailing for you now?
my life isnt tt kind of smooth sailing for me now. sometimes, i just wonder if my parents do things for my own good, or for their own interests. this few days, it makes me feel if im being locked up. not to be able to do wad i want, and just feel imprisoned.
i hate it when my grandma says i follow the trend. i hate it when she says dance is not good. i hate it when she says stop pursuing dance because sch's starting soon. i hate it when she says i have to concentrate on my studies. i hate it when she's being random shit and nagging at me to stop dance soon.
the more i hate it when she tries to stop me from dancing.=\
i hate thinking the fact tt she tried stopping me from playing basketball when i was kinda obsessed with it last time.=\
its EXACTLY the same now, for dance.=\
it kinda hurts me when my family doesnt support me in wad i do now, because this is wad i wanna pursue now. the thought of gg nafa have been dashed, simply my daddy insisted me to go to a JC or POLY. its not a 3 min fever or smth, which they apprently thought was. if its a 3 min fever kind of thing, i would have lost the passion oready. my daddy oso disapproves of me dancing. is taking a diploma and earning loads of money tt important to them? i dun see the point. im not doing it for them. i wanna do things for myself. call me selfish, i dun care. i really dislike the idea of having to do things their way.
i hate to lie. seriously. and just because of pursuing dance, im actually lying to them. i told them i wasnt going to swu anymore, where i've oready signed as a member. having to think tt i might get busted anytime really makes me frustrated. its tt kind of thing where its at the back of your head that keeps bugging on u.=\
im crying inside. im really crying. i cant take it anymore. why arent things going for me, and why i dun get the support i need from my family? i guess i've hurt my knee and i cant even tell my daddy, for i am sure he know its caused by dance. im really tired. of having being obstructed by so many obstacles, of having to cover up for something that i enjoy doing. its not as though i cant earn a living by dancing can. and money is NOT everything. at least to me.=\
wadver it is, im determined to pursue dance. whether or not my gma and daddy likes it or not, im continuing. even if i have to be financially independent. for now, i just hope i dun get busted, till i get a job.
people must be wondering, why dont i tell my parents the truth of joining swu and why dont i talk to them right? look, if thats so easy, i wouldnt have to pour all my feelings here. and my daddy and gma is those weird people who stick to their beliefs, thinkin that wad they do are for someone's own good. therefore, telling or talking to them, isnt gg to help.=\
and to my girls, i find it difficult to express myself even if i tell u guys straight in the face. this way, i think would better bring out howi feel. so yeahs..
okays.
joey joey, u this emo piece of shit. DUN GIVE UP!* ( self consolation.=x)
regards,
joey.
my life isnt tt kind of smooth sailing for me now. sometimes, i just wonder if my parents do things for my own good, or for their own interests. this few days, it makes me feel if im being locked up. not to be able to do wad i want, and just feel imprisoned.
i hate it when my grandma says i follow the trend. i hate it when she says dance is not good. i hate it when she says stop pursuing dance because sch's starting soon. i hate it when she says i have to concentrate on my studies. i hate it when she's being random shit and nagging at me to stop dance soon.
the more i hate it when she tries to stop me from dancing.=\
i hate thinking the fact tt she tried stopping me from playing basketball when i was kinda obsessed with it last time.=\
its EXACTLY the same now, for dance.=\
it kinda hurts me when my family doesnt support me in wad i do now, because this is wad i wanna pursue now. the thought of gg nafa have been dashed, simply my daddy insisted me to go to a JC or POLY. its not a 3 min fever or smth, which they apprently thought was. if its a 3 min fever kind of thing, i would have lost the passion oready. my daddy oso disapproves of me dancing. is taking a diploma and earning loads of money tt important to them? i dun see the point. im not doing it for them. i wanna do things for myself. call me selfish, i dun care. i really dislike the idea of having to do things their way.
i hate to lie. seriously. and just because of pursuing dance, im actually lying to them. i told them i wasnt going to swu anymore, where i've oready signed as a member. having to think tt i might get busted anytime really makes me frustrated. its tt kind of thing where its at the back of your head that keeps bugging on u.=\
im crying inside. im really crying. i cant take it anymore. why arent things going for me, and why i dun get the support i need from my family? i guess i've hurt my knee and i cant even tell my daddy, for i am sure he know its caused by dance. im really tired. of having being obstructed by so many obstacles, of having to cover up for something that i enjoy doing. its not as though i cant earn a living by dancing can. and money is NOT everything. at least to me.=\
wadver it is, im determined to pursue dance. whether or not my gma and daddy likes it or not, im continuing. even if i have to be financially independent. for now, i just hope i dun get busted, till i get a job.
people must be wondering, why dont i tell my parents the truth of joining swu and why dont i talk to them right? look, if thats so easy, i wouldnt have to pour all my feelings here. and my daddy and gma is those weird people who stick to their beliefs, thinkin that wad they do are for someone's own good. therefore, telling or talking to them, isnt gg to help.=\
and to my girls, i find it difficult to express myself even if i tell u guys straight in the face. this way, i think would better bring out howi feel. so yeahs..
okays.
joey joey, u this emo piece of shit. DUN GIVE UP!* ( self consolation.=x)
regards,
joey.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
haha. got kinda loads to say. so here goes.=D
sunday ;
rmb having to go for dance in the morning.
hahas. purposely woke up early so tt i wont be late for class luh!
then jackson tried dancing luh. hahas.=D
lixin was finally back. lol.
and then street jazz was v v v slow.
its like she did chenne, but the slower version.
hahas. so me and daniel was like,
kept going faster than her counting.
LOL.
then hiphop was fun.
very nice. and i love her choreo.
LOL.
then did the steps, and after lesson,
saw her playlist and finally got the song i want.=x
hahas.
the funny part is, everybody stayed back even wehn me and daniel asked her qns.
so its like, those who dun have qns oso stay back.
which prompted her to ask ' dun u guys have a life? its SUNDAY!'
LOL.
umm, i think she refers to me.=x
then mon was okies.
was kinda pissed off by the sec ones in sch.
hadda go back to sch to coach them in their audition piece for commendation day.
and it sucks lar.
they are so defiant.
asking them to do warm ups are like talking to the wall.-.-
i got pissed and punished one dancer.
but well, if u consider running ard the hall once as a punishment.
im TOO lenient.=x
then headed to swu.
me and ch managed to convince jackson to join swu!
haha. so he signed up and stuff.
then suddenyl at the back i heard a familar voice la.
and when i turn back, lixin goes like,
' u again?' hhaa!
then dunnoe wad steps she talking bout la.
and then she told me tt ishi using back her steps.
LOL.
ishi was like ' yah luh! teach me lei!'
LOL.-.-
then they were talking but some freaking sports car
and its funny to hear ishi gg so vulgar.
LOL!
' u this piece of shit!!'
*kicks lixin's chair*
hahas!
cause lixin's getting a car, and apparently, ishi is jealous.=x
hahas.
funny shit.
then his choreo is nice today. RNB.
not really hiphop.
lol.
then bryan's class next.
wooooO!
HE SO CUTE LAH!
hahahas.
then choreo to this namie amuro track.
and rock man!
=DDD
enjoyed myself alot.
was initially v upset with the girls in sch.
but then the guys lifted my spirits up in swu!
hahas.
people like meien, michelle, limin, hannah, daniel.
all nice people! =DDDDD
and not forgetting bessy and lixin.
haha. seeing bessy makes me feel somewhat comfortable.
LOL.
anw, i needa get a job soon.
please please get me a job! =X
for personal reason. LOL.
gonna go for contem class at kallang later.
i think i hurt my left knee nias.
and well, i dunnoe lei.
see whether can leap in class or not.
LOL!
hhahaa. tml would be a busy day yo!!
all 3 lessons PLUS coaching in sch! wahahahahaha.=x
IM LOVING EVERY MOMENT.
=DDD
ps. im into TP ; LAW AND MANAGEMENT.
legal advice anyone? xD
loves.
joey.
sunday ;
rmb having to go for dance in the morning.
hahas. purposely woke up early so tt i wont be late for class luh!
then jackson tried dancing luh. hahas.=D
lixin was finally back. lol.
and then street jazz was v v v slow.
its like she did chenne, but the slower version.
hahas. so me and daniel was like,
kept going faster than her counting.
LOL.
then hiphop was fun.
very nice. and i love her choreo.
LOL.
then did the steps, and after lesson,
saw her playlist and finally got the song i want.=x
hahas.
the funny part is, everybody stayed back even wehn me and daniel asked her qns.
so its like, those who dun have qns oso stay back.
which prompted her to ask ' dun u guys have a life? its SUNDAY!'
LOL.
umm, i think she refers to me.=x
then mon was okies.
was kinda pissed off by the sec ones in sch.
hadda go back to sch to coach them in their audition piece for commendation day.
and it sucks lar.
they are so defiant.
asking them to do warm ups are like talking to the wall.-.-
i got pissed and punished one dancer.
but well, if u consider running ard the hall once as a punishment.
im TOO lenient.=x
then headed to swu.
me and ch managed to convince jackson to join swu!
haha. so he signed up and stuff.
then suddenyl at the back i heard a familar voice la.
and when i turn back, lixin goes like,
' u again?' hhaa!
then dunnoe wad steps she talking bout la.
and then she told me tt ishi using back her steps.
LOL.
ishi was like ' yah luh! teach me lei!'
LOL.-.-
then they were talking but some freaking sports car
and its funny to hear ishi gg so vulgar.
LOL!
' u this piece of shit!!'
*kicks lixin's chair*
hahas!
cause lixin's getting a car, and apparently, ishi is jealous.=x
hahas.
funny shit.
then his choreo is nice today. RNB.
not really hiphop.
lol.
then bryan's class next.
wooooO!
HE SO CUTE LAH!
hahahas.
then choreo to this namie amuro track.
and rock man!
=DDD
enjoyed myself alot.
was initially v upset with the girls in sch.
but then the guys lifted my spirits up in swu!
hahas.
people like meien, michelle, limin, hannah, daniel.
all nice people! =DDDDD
and not forgetting bessy and lixin.
haha. seeing bessy makes me feel somewhat comfortable.
LOL.
anw, i needa get a job soon.
please please get me a job! =X
for personal reason. LOL.
gonna go for contem class at kallang later.
i think i hurt my left knee nias.
and well, i dunnoe lei.
see whether can leap in class or not.
LOL!
hhahaa. tml would be a busy day yo!!
all 3 lessons PLUS coaching in sch! wahahahahaha.=x
IM LOVING EVERY MOMENT.
=DDD
ps. im into TP ; LAW AND MANAGEMENT.
legal advice anyone? xD
loves.
joey.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
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