is your life smooth sailing for you now?
my life isnt tt kind of smooth sailing for me now. sometimes, i just wonder if my parents do things for my own good, or for their own interests. this few days, it makes me feel if im being locked up. not to be able to do wad i want, and just feel imprisoned.

i hate it when my grandma says i follow the trend. i hate it when she says dance is not good. i hate it when she says stop pursuing dance because sch's starting soon. i hate it when she says i have to concentrate on my studies. i hate it when she's being random shit and nagging at me to stop dance soon.
the more i hate it when she tries to stop me from dancing.=\
i hate thinking the fact tt she tried stopping me from playing basketball when i was kinda obsessed with it last time.=\
its EXACTLY the same now, for dance.=\

it kinda hurts me when my family doesnt support me in wad i do now, because this is wad i wanna pursue now. the thought of gg nafa have been dashed, simply my daddy insisted me to go to a JC or POLY. its not a 3 min fever or smth, which they apprently thought was. if its a 3 min fever kind of thing, i would have lost the passion oready. my daddy oso disapproves of me dancing. is taking a diploma and earning loads of money tt important to them? i dun see the point. im not doing it for them. i wanna do things for myself. call me selfish, i dun care. i really dislike the idea of having to do things their way.

i hate to lie. seriously. and just because of pursuing dance, im actually lying to them. i told them i wasnt going to swu anymore, where i've oready signed as a member. having to think tt i might get busted anytime really makes me frustrated. its tt kind of thing where its at the back of your head that keeps bugging on u.=\

im crying inside. im really crying. i cant take it anymore. why arent things going for me, and why i dun get the support i need from my family? i guess i've hurt my knee and i cant even tell my daddy, for i am sure he know its caused by dance. im really tired. of having being obstructed by so many obstacles, of having to cover up for something that i enjoy doing. its not as though i cant earn a living by dancing can. and money is NOT everything. at least to me.=\

wadver it is, im determined to pursue dance. whether or not my gma and daddy likes it or not, im continuing. even if i have to be financially independent. for now, i just hope i dun get busted, till i get a job.

people must be wondering, why dont i tell my parents the truth of joining swu and why dont i talk to them right? look, if thats so easy, i wouldnt have to pour all my feelings here. and my daddy and gma is those weird people who stick to their beliefs, thinkin that wad they do are for someone's own good. therefore, telling or talking to them, isnt gg to help.=\

and to my girls, i find it difficult to express myself even if i tell u guys straight in the face. this way, i think would better bring out howi feel. so yeahs..

okays.
joey joey, u this emo piece of shit. DUN GIVE UP!* ( self consolation.=x)



regards,
joey.