its the 7th today.

17 months already.. what a very very long time. 17 months of not seeing each other, not hearing each other's voices, not breathing in each other's scent, not feeling each other's warm embrace.

wow. i will never understand how we actually lasted this long.

i love you james. i wish you were here right now.

i wish you were with me all the time.

but its alright. it will always be alright.

i have no idea why the wound took so long this time , to heal. im sorry.

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its the month of december. i dont feel the hype of christmas. i dont feel the hype of my birthday. i dont feel alot of things this month. maybe its me. i feel really numb towards everything. i feel like some introvert again. i dont wanna do anything, i just want to be alone.

i want to stay in starbucks, and watch people walk by. or probably go to borders and read some book.


sigh.