post to myself.

haven't been blogging much.
am so tired every single day . honestly its tough handling SIP and dance together.
with work everyday, waking up at bloody 6am . its freaking tough.

i miss james, i missed talking long with him.
all i could do, is just to come home, talk for like 30 mins with him before i go. and i have to endure all the shit in the morning and night before his precious 30 mins with me.

and im feeling damn fucked up over issues and issues that ive been trying to get over it. it always surfaces. and stop fucking make me feel im being ignored. honestly. stop making me feel insignificant.

whatever.

and i broke down today while waiting for the bus alone at the bus stop. you all have no freaking idea how tired, how lonely i felt at that moment because u guys have your partners around so in case i get compared , im just ranting here.

whatever again. im just gonna go off now. fuck .

ps. i get really cranky when i dont have enough sleep so just ignore this post.