APPENDIX D(:

its been a long process with this group of people. heh . many arguments , many disappointments with different people and of course many fun times with each other. heh. its all over now though. im happy that its over because ive learnt , and i know more bout what im lacking of and what i need to improve on. and seeing so many talents out there really enforces the fact that i really need to buck up and improve.

im thankful to each and every one in the group that made the finals possible , i thank for all the support and encouragment each one gave to each other. it does not mean that we're weak. im sure we'll be going to battlegrounds sooner or later. its just a matter of time. (:

i believe that its a fucked up week especially for andy and me , but its all over now. no more training after work, no more squeezing and racing against time to get to smu or tp anymore. and no more smelly people on bus 857 anymore. lol.

its all back to training once again . need to start thinking bout my directions again. what am i looking for now, what do i wanna achieve once again. withdrawal symptoms are here. lol. upcoming events would be FTL and funkamania. lol.

i desperately wanna leave this place and start training like crazy without having to worry bout anything. i wanna succeed , i wanna be good. i dont wanna be stuck in a rut, being stagnant and constantly getting compared with others. i just wanna dance and achieve what i aimed for. i dont wanna get a C when i can aim for an A.

honestly, there are alot of insecurities and unhappiness inside me . somehow when i want to pen it down here , i have to think bout alot of factors. so tiring. i know im not happy and nothing's helping.

i must learn not to be too sensitive. strangely, im not like that in the past. i wonder what happened.

i want some time to myself. to think, to revaluate .

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zzz i feel so sucky ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh why why why wtf wtffffffffffff. neh neh so irritatinggggggg i feeel like ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh basketball bitches bastards wtfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff okay continue later..

wtfffffffffffffffffffff.....=.=