joycelyn once told me bout the opposite joey that she fears.
and , i think the opposite joey is appearing .

many times i've asked myself,
what do i want from this .
i kept asking .
but i had no answer for it .
all i knew, was that im currently happy,
and thats all it matters.

life's realistic.
you either come prepared, or unprepared.
changes are inevitable.
ive never liked myself changing.
and im trying not to.

but.
do people look at the reasons , or the results to it ?

i've never wanted to hurt you.
never ever.
but if there are things i can alter,
i would.

people bear grudges to problems faced.
even if i've said okay.
but ask yourself.
is that really okay?
i dont know.

the irony of certain things.
makes you think, and wonder why is it like that.
no?

-
great. its 1 more day to KO night.
and my heart is aching.
not that its anyone's fault.
i know its mine.
and it always have been.


im beginning to hate myself even more.

stop doing this.
i hate it very much.

^_^
i love you too .
very very much .
i won't take you for granted ever .
and i'll do what makes you happy .
(:

today's a happy day for baby .
and my spirits lifted up , when i knew he's happy.
(:

and so,
today's a sunday.
went out with the mom.
and she's so random.
wanted to go get a kebaya.
so we went to weird places that she wouldnt visit.
lol.
and it started raining when we reached chinatown.
=\
hate rainy days.
had lunch there, and headed back to orchard .
its like our second home.
-.-

walked around , bla bla .
headed home .
took a nap, and was bout to go online when diana told me baby's already there.
heh.
(:

love my boyfriend very much.

ps. he dreamt of us !
haha.

i love you.
=p