quotes.

i have been reading this book called 'words that matter' by the Oprah magazine and its amazing how this tiny book could actually make me feel all inspired and beautiful inside. you know, when you feel all demoralized and shitty bout everything thats going in this world, its good to find this kind of inspirational books and have a read. (:

' i know now that a relationship built on real love feels good. it isnt selfish ; it doesnt cause you anxiety. when someone loves you, he understands that youre lovable just because you're here. how he treats you underscores that understanding' - Oprah.

'if you are in love.. that's about the best thing that can happen to anyone . dont let anyone make it small or light to you.' -John Steinbeck, Author.

'our capacity to love often depends on having a good childhood - not a great one, just good enough.' Ethel Person, medical doctor and psychoanalyst.

and what i realised bout life, is that we always judge people. we always judge people on the cover. we dont really know the person , and although their actions reflect what we judge, i think its not right. after all, we're all God's children . its just that we're born in different situations , born in different families with different environment . so who are we to judge and say we know their situation? but of course, every single one has that little judgmental streak in us . (:

just a random thought.

enjoy your saturday!

lynette's VERY early bday celebration !

its really heartwarming to see how much the boyfriend have done for her..

(:

but at the same time..

the venue is like...

LOL.

(:

love this girl.

yesterday's gathering made me realised that im very much blessed with this group of friends that will stick with me through thick and thin , and will never say goodbye to me ever.

(:

i love you girls !

my first CG meeting .

i had my very first CG meeting today.

(:

was really in a pissy mood and feeling all edgy but as i started worshipping and praying to my Father, i feel so much better. i didnt know why, or maybe its just that i haven gotten over what happened yesterday. lol.

so anyway today's meeting was really powerful. i felt so much and honestly, i think God talks to me through people. just when i had a bad day yesterday, He told me to believe in Him and not let situations pull me down. (: i must always always remember that.

i think i've changed quite abit , after getting saved. im not quite like the person i was before. im pretty sure its more on the positive side . but somehow , my confidence in dance dropped tremendously. just like for class today, i feel so inferior, so ugly. like im not like what i used to be . being called out might seem to people that im good enough in the instructor's eyes , but i got called after he played the music. maybe he was just being kind in putting me there. i dont wanna assume , but i seriously feel i just began dancing , and i felt really lousy.

you know , its really hard to stay positive all the time ? like how i told myself that i've just picked up dancing again and i shouldnt expect too much . but each time i go to a class, i sense the regret in me , like why didnt i dance in that 6 months? i lost so so so much. like a part of me was really gone.

then the technical part and the comparison kicks in. like how i feel that im not technically strong anymore and how some people improved so much that i felt so lousy. and then the Devil just had to step in and remind me of all the regrets i had. zzz.

my dream is still to be a dancer full time . i never gave up, i just put it on hold . but now is the time i guess. how long must i take to achieve? i dont know , but i know God has everything planned out for me , and if it doesnt work out then i cant do anything , can i? lol.

it feels good typing here again . at least i feel a small mountain lifting up from my shoulders. (:

i do not want to be the best. i just want to be good enough for God and to live up to my expectations.

and today , i didnt live up to mine .

lol.

nevermind , try again . just like today's class. the lyrics goes something like.. 'dust it off , try again '.

yes maybe its okay. i just have to dust it off , and try hard again.

(:

hope my baby's feeling better today

(:

gonna go off now. long post today. heh.

<3

2011.

i realised that as you grow older, the sentences you type are more perfect ,

and it gets longer.

i also realised that, as you grow older, colorful blogskins and fanciful prints on your blog,

dont seem to matter anymore. Minimalistic is the 'in' thing.

what i also realised, that as you grow older , you become more mature and seem to care lesser for people who stepped out of your life.

people come and go .

what a sad and realistic life we lead.

lol.